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autumn in virginia

2009-09-19T05:40:00.002+08:00

We are starting to move into autumn right now... and during this period I've set a trend... I finally cut my long hair short... and now everyone's cutting their hair...
wahaha... I really really love the States now... and wished I din have to come back in Dec... the weather here is now very cooling and I love the stressless feeling here...

The few things that I miss are.. my family, my friends and the food. Not that the food here in US sucks... it's just too few varieties... it's burgers and fries everyday... :( but other then that... everything here rocks!

I think the China people here in the dorm generally sucks... then again... when were they good? lol... they just keep to their own world and complain that the Americans don't like them and always give them shit work... but please... u are working in an AMUSEMENT park... what are you expecting yourself to do? they just keep complaining and din do their job properly... *faints* it's no wonder why the Americans sent them home when they came to work for Haunt... linting and I were really lucky that they needed us to paint the mazes and so we were told to work. :) linting and I have been working to set up the Halloween haunt mazes in KD... it was really fun! we painted the walls and the floors... so now... i've got paint on my pants... that wouldn't go away... so this berms.. it's gone... lol... but i had lotsa fun... lotsa fun working with the entertainment people... i think I'll go take their photos next week when haunt set up is done...

I'm now so excited about halloween... i hope they'll allow me to dress up as a 'scarer' so i can go around in the park after 7pm to scare people... wahaha...

really really excited now... hoping to see how the americans spent halloween... and so far... everyone's excited! haha...

shall end my lengthy blog here... haha

Closing to a month in Virginia

2009-08-11T10:06:00.002+08:00

though I've promised myself not to be a dead blogger...
I find it extremely hard to do so..
for one.. In my dorm in King's Dominion, the wireless network sucks...
U've to use it at weird times to get fast connection...
I've tried to upload photos but it was unsuccessful attempts... wahaha...

Anyways, it's closed to a month since I've came to KD. I've got quite adjusted to the life here. With the exception of the prices here for food... wahaha... I should seriously consider to stop converting to Singapore dollars coz it made everything here seemed super expensive.

I've watched 3 movies here so far... and maybe it's just Virgina... the cinemas here are all free seating... just have to get ur tickets and you can sit anywhere you like. wahaha... I've watched Harry Potter, the Proposal, and the orphan.... hahaha... the tickets prices if you convert to SGD, it's a little steep like watching on Sat every day... the tickets are at 9.75USD which is abt 14SGD... wahaha...

When u buy things here, don't take for granted for the price coz tax is not included yet. so everytime u buy something, you still must add tax in... wahaha... tax is about 5%...

food here is expensive but big in portion... you'll definitely buy BEN's and Jerries... coz back at home, one big tub cost like 12 i think... but here, one big tub is only about 4USD which is abt 6SGD... so super cheap!!! hahaha...

been to KD to play on Sunday... and proud to say I've gone on many rides... will try to upload them on facebook.. hahaha

my stay in US

2009-07-16T08:13:00.003+08:00

yes.. i have arrived at King's Dominion park for 2 days already.... i reached on the 13 jul... haha.. well.. the time difference is 12 hours... so when it's 9am here... it's 9pm back home...
i have been slping alot... haha.... at least 9 hours a day... so feel like a pig... unfortunately... i can onli start working tis sat... but it's ok... coz i spend the time doing grocery shopping with Linting...

there aren't many singaporeans here... most of them leaving the country very soon coz they need to go back and study...

there are many different pple from different countries... oh yes... there are cute guys and pretty ladies too... hahaha....

I'm the minority here... but it's okay... coz everyone is very nice here.... haha... i sure hope that i'll enjoy my stay here... :) many months to go... wahaha..

Yes... trying not to be a dead blogger

2009-07-11T17:18:00.002+08:00

okay... From now till end of the year... I shall make a promise to myself... i'll start blogging again... I'll blog about my trip in US... Guess what... i'm not even 100% prepared... lol...

i'm depending on Linting for lotsa things... so pls... Let linting nv will get angry wif me during our trip or i'm dead... wahaha... so exciting...

Tml... marks the last day of the week and oso a special day for me... for I'll leave my homeland at 5.40am with Linting and embark on a trip to US, Richmond, Virginia... I'm very excited and very unprepared for the trip... coz I have juz ended my internship 2 weeks ago... wahaha...

it's the first time that i'm away from my hometown for 5 months & i'm feeling both excited and worried at the same time. I know I'll miss my mum, my dad, my sis, Ben & frens... but I hope that it'll be a good exp for me to me independent and away frm my comfort zone...

I'm worried most abt my mum and sis... esp my sis... who's taking Os this year but dun seem to care abt it... lol... i kept reminding her that it is definitely not impossible to fail Os... but it still seem that she's not making the effort... hopefully when I'm away in US, she'll grow up in her thinkin and study hard for her Os...

I'm worried abt my mum too... She has been too dependent on me over the past years and I wonder if she could cope without me.... hopefully so... I've instructed my sis to take good care of mum... & hopefully when I'm not around, they'll be closer to each other too... I guess there's a generation gap between mum and sis but they'll sort it out once I leave...

I'm sure to miss Ben... but it's a good trial for the both of us... hopefully he doesn't cheat on me when I'm gone & likewise for me... lolx... I wonder if he'll feel lonely when I'm not around but I know I worry too much... he'll do just fine :) well... he survived 25 years of his life w/o me by his side... so he'll do just fine...

Maybe... i'm just too afraid that I learn the honest truth that I'm actually not that important... I know the world will still turn with or without me... but hoping that I'm still someone's air or water... lol...

But... i'm still looking forward to spend my days ahead with the company of Linting... lolx... yes... i'll be seeing her everyday for 5 mths... haha... hopefully during these 5 mths... our friendship will grow to be stronger... and hopefully... our friendship will then withstand time and till we grow old and can't walk anymore, we'll still be best friends who shares joys and sadness together...

not wanting to write actually

2009-02-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

it's actually a Miracle for me to post this entry... i haven been writing for a long time.... but i guess... if i shld update it so that my long long time frens wld still noe if I'm alive... lolx...

my dear friends... I missed you guys... It's been years since I last saw phy i tink... and a long time since I saw wakey and glen too... Almost cldn't remember how glen look like le... whahaa... so it goes to show how long i haven been seeing u... :( i miss jul too though we spent counting down to 2009 together... we haven been in touch since... *ouch* well.... i guess that's life... lolx...

for my dear frens who still bothered to read this blog... haha... cheers to you... you deserve to know what I am doing now... wahaha...

for one... I'm sorry I din spent my bdae wif any of my best frens tis year... Sry phy, glen and jul and wakey... those whom I spent my previous bdae wif... this year I had.. half expectedly... one of the worst bdae ever...

i was sick on my bdae... not a very good thing huh... and my mum has decided to come up wif some stupid excuse to get me to juz stay at hm and do nothing except for watching tv for my bdae... not even wanting to go out for dinner till I cried and paid for it... it was a heartbreaking day for me... nv cried so much since dunno when... been crying alot on my bdae... super upset over what mum said and did... super upset wif my dad... he promised to try to make it for my bdae but nv did... Try.. the magic word... and so... my little wish of having the whole family together to have dinner as a WHOLE family was crushed and broken and hence... i cried summore... cldn't stop the tears... it was bad... real bad... even thinking about it made me feel like crying again... i guess it's a girl thing...

wahaha... ok... enough of my bdae... what am i doing now? Those who dun see me at sch... u guys are rite... I'm not studying in sch tis sem... took 6 months off to do an internship... over at MDA... haha... everyday is a stressed day for me... super interesting to the experts at work and stuff... super busy... there was 1 day I almost fainted... 4 meetings back to back... + a proposal waiting for me to write... I swear I almost died... but it was fun... wahaha... I love my current job, and my frens and colleagues... they are all super funny and nice... really nice... guiding me all along... wahaha...

after working there for 1 mth plus now... I finally learnt that MDA does not do censorship... lolx... yup... surprising but true... MDA onli rate the films... like ur PG, NC 16, M18, R21 and G... they nv cut any scenes out... it's the movie distributors that cut out those scenes coz they wanna make money by lowering down the rating... like when MDA rates it as NC16 and distributor wanna make more money they will ask MDA where to cut so that the show can be PG... so... finally... I noe MDA does not cut the scenes at all... oh ya... btw... it not juz MDA that rates movies... it's done with a panel of classifers that are not MDA pple... like teachers, parents and stufff... so when ur movie is rated NC 16... dun juz blame MDA... blame ur mum too... lolx... kidding larz... dun blame ur mum... i noe she had a hard time giving birth to you (and us of course)... Mums are the best in the world... no matter what they do... they always try to think of their children first... same for my mum... except for the bdae case... Can't believe she totally ruin my bdae... but... i still love her... wahaha...

i dunno when I'll see my frenz... but I hope to see them at least once before july... wahaha...not becoz I'm graduating... but becoz... I tink most likely... i'll b out of the country frm jul to nov... wahaha... going for work and travel... so pushing graduation all the way till one year later... cool rite? wahaha... I hope my work and travel thing go smoothly as planned... wahaha... I would try to take as many pics as I can.... lol....

oh ya... happy valentine's day every one!

JB trip!

2008-08-06T08:49:00.002+08:00

Yesterday... I went to JB! with Ronda and Linting...
it was fun! haha... Ronda is super funny... she always jam the queue at the customs... either the machine din like her... or she too sexy le... so the pple at the customs are all se lang... refuse to let her go...

fruitful trip yesterday... I spend over RM400... *puke blood* yes...
thanks to Linting's encouragement... I bought lotsa things... bought bags and loads of t-shirts... lolx... ronda is like a model... make me super jealous...
every thing that she tries on looks good on her! lolx... I guess it's time for me to lose weight... wahaha...

getting my car today... so quite excited... been wanting to rent a car for a long time... lolx... oh well... i'm so thrill... but dunno wat to do later :(

i noe I'll visit ben at work... haha... den dunno wat le... :( shld I go pj? wahaha..

finally a break!

2008-08-04T08:54:00.002+08:00

congrats to me... i have just stopped working full time! :) hurray! haha... working is always fun with my funan pals... i love working at funan... haha... the people are nicer here than at simlim... lolx... oh well...

July is here... so scary.. but i'm still fine... happy and fine...
had 2 sad days already.. thanks to my stupidity... asked the wrong questions...
but was quite upset with ben's answer...

suddenly feel that Men are stupid and MCPs! after asking him his views, i feel even sadder... the path ahead is darker now... :(

thank god Andy was asking me not to think to much... just enjoy the relationship first... ya... we dun even know if we could last that long...

juz take it as it is...

oh ya... great news! Im taking German.... haha... Wanted to take korean but seriously outbided... it was like onli 4 in a class and wat? no. of bidders were like 16? and worse... the lowest min bid was like 1200 pts? this is crazy... so change to take german... lolx... at least it needed onli 1 pt... lolx

why muz there be a title?

2008-07-15T23:38:00.003+08:00

lolx... been wanting to blog for a long time but nv did have the time to do so....
proudly announcing... and saying sorry... I've juz change a new fone so might have lost a few contacts... so I'm sorry if u msg me and I ask u hu r u... lolx...

juz changed to a HTC diamond... thought it was better since the processor and the design is much better than my old cruise... plus... my poor cruise was badly scarred... :( learning to take care of my diamond now... but it fell to the ground aniwaez... :( well... thank goodness that the floor was carpetted and i had my case on... so it wasnt dat bad... lolx...

been working... it was fun... i took the trouble to give almost everyone a nickname... lolx... Andy, my in-charge and the most handsome guy @ my work place is called mao mao... coz he's quite hairy... lolx... but ok larz... i tot his hair was quite charming actually... lolx...

next is benny... he realli look like a loan shark... lol... i call him ban ban.. coz it sounded quite...

addy... the most friendly and most helpful guy around... i call him gou gou (doggie) cause i tink he's like doggie... man's best fren... coz he always very nice... den always sell cheap to customer... lolx...

Speed is call Pi pi... the sound of the roadrunner coz like his name... he reali is fast... fast in walking... lolx...

andrew is cockroach... coz he is as hateful as cockroach (to me) coz he always like to disturb me... juz a few days ago... he pretend to hand me my fone and drop it onto the floor... he used a dummy set to trick me into believing that he dropped my phone just infront of me... i was like "f***" den he burst out laughing...

well... the rest i hadn't tot of nick names for them yet... :( so haha...

dear dear and his brother bought a car together!!! so happy.. i finally get to drive... and as usual... we quarrelled... why? he say i drive too fast... den nv check mirror... always veer off course... n he tried to grab the wheel while i was driving so i was quite pissed... lolx... but ok... at least i got to drive... dear dear's been very nice to me lately... after i complained that i feel he no care about me... so he tried his best to surprise me...

dear bought me a sheep which i took a pic off the mag and show him and told him i like it... but reali din tot he'll buy... but he did and it's now lying on my bed beside me... hugging it to slp every nite... lolx...

dear oso been msging more often :) i guess i've got no complains about him... lolx... shall end here... tml still got work :(

Gou gou very good... now go for reservist... holiday for him... no pressure from work! *sighs*

:( today was a bad day for me... :( i lost the customer's driving license... :( lucky she said nvm... but i scare tml her husband wld come... afterall... I lost his driving license.. not hers... :( so suay... lost all my mood to do sales... :(

boring

2008-04-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

i'm abt to get sick... i can feel it in my throat...
I juz ate a box of durian... yes! my fav. durian...
Juz drank wine wif mummy after eating durian... haha..
i can feel the heat coming up... yes... gonna get a sore throat...

watched lotsa shows lately... watch 3 kingdoms... the no. one thing i feel is...
wa... only andy lau is the main character... the rest... lolx... even my vaness oso pei jiao... onli got one scene... lolx..

being pissed lately by ben's action... shan't talk abt it coz it makes me even madder juz to tink about it...

spent most of my time today doing my project... website designing realli tedious...
lolx... it reali looks weird... Aarron... HELP!!!! yes... i'm gonnna find my tutor for help... no matter how hard i try... can't get it to be within the 600x800 ratio...
lol..

been spending time playing mahjong... yes... and bridge too... my fav games... viwawa.com rocks! haha.... it's fun... reali... hahaha...

pls dun tell me to study... coz i tink... i can't study... feeling quite depressed...
coz for the holidays i'm going back to Song Brothers to work... & i tot i'll be leaving there for good... now going back again... feel a little... depressed... like sang jia quan (hope my han yu ping yin is rite)... oh well... shall end here...

I don't wanna go back to work... dun wanna work under the same company as BEN! haha... hope Sebast would reali transfer me to cam counter... coz i really dun wanna work with mp3 counter any more... i dun wanna work wif PRCs... :(

yay!!!

2008-02-19T10:38:00.002+08:00

yes.. i know it has been such a long time since I updated....
lolx... anyways... I am still alive... lolx...

First... i wld say... Poor edison and all other actresses that is in the scandal...
wif exception to Gillian... at least bobo was edison's gf... but Gillian??? lolx...
summore she like always act like some yu nu liddat... but still quite poor thing coz afterall these are private stuff... lolx... well... moral of the story???
don't take stupid pics if you are public fig larz... lolx...

*yawns... happy to announce.... I got my license le!!! i passed my driving yesterday and hafta go down later to bbdc to make my license... lolx... happy... next time mayb i can drive???? lolx...

anyone interested in learning Manual driving can ask me for my instructor... lolx... he's super good just that he oso super strict... wahaha.... but ok larz.... anyways... i spend less than wat i would spend in sch... after my calculation i onli spent abt 1500 dollars... at least 500 less than sch... :) super happy!!!!

Merry X'mas

2007-12-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

An Early Merry X'mas to everyone... ho ho ho...
been busy wif work lately...

wahaha... tinking of spending X'mas along tis year... lolx...
oh well... no plans for x'mas yet... lolx...

feel lyk doing things alone lately...
dun feel like doing anything wif pple... lolx..
Loner! wahaha..

Beginging to fall in love wif walking....
been wanting to walk but hardly any chance for me to do so...

turning 21 in 2 mths time... feeling pretty old...
dunno wat to do wif my b dae... feel like spending it alone wif my family...
lolx... actually... i just feel like being alone...

wahaha... been trying to get a HTC touch but failed...
Argh!!!! looks like it's not meant to be...

feel that pple ard me and including me are all changing...
can't tell if it's for good or bad...
wahaha... sorry if I haven been replying msgs...
just feel like being alone... lolx...

I just wanna be left alone...
Alone in my own world...
where I'm happy to think onli the happy things...
and ignore the rest of the world....
I just wanna be alone...

wahaha... been alone is the best...
I tink i might wanna spent all my special days alone...
it feels good to be walking alone...
feels free... finally...
wahaha...

I just wanna be left alone...
dun talk to me... for i no longer wish to talk...
dun cry for me... for i no longer wish to care abt anything...
I just wanna be alone...

locked out

2007-11-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

i'm now locked out of my house....
I did not bring my keys out today...
thinking that my project meeting wld end early...
well... I was wrong... It ended only at 10 pm...
by the time i came to the door step... It was already 1115...
Mummy did not wait for me...
She slept already... :( and I was locked out of my home...
tried calling mummy... but mum soundly asleep so she din wake up despite me calling...
when i realised dat mum already asleep and i'm locked out... I can't help but cry...
Mummy never open door... I feel very sad....
Why mummy never wait up for me....
feel like mummy don't want me le... so i can't help but to cry...

The thought of I wanna go home but cannot made me feel extremely sad...
feel like my heart's aching... so i cried and cried summore...

Worse things happened later... I walked all the way to Gek Poh so that I cld withdraw some money...
bt suddenly all the doors closed... I waited for bus to bring me to Boon Lay Interchange..
But bus driver nv see me wave and din stop...

I tried going to the taxi stand at JP to find out that the route I took was a dead end...
Finally when I managed to get a cab... It was already 12am...
Ben asked me for my location... bt only once that's all... den he fell asleep...
though he knew i was crying he still fell asleep...

Glenda dat pig... nv pick up my call...
I dun like Glen any more... always dun pick up my call... :(

Onli Juliet msg me throughout... Thanks girl...
I felt that at least you cared about me...
lolx...

more blues...

2007-11-07T12:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday i met wif Ben...
I gave him a black face when he told me he brought his laptop out so that he cld watch his drama coz he said he was early...
he den asked me if he had offended me...
I told him he offended me before our anniversary...
on our anniversary and the day before our anniversary...
he said he had done nothing wrong at all...
wow....

we had some sort of a quarrel...
but later we watched movie and went to play bowling... and guess wat he said...
he said... if he won me at bowling...
i would have to forgive him even though he had done nothing wrong...

I told him... if he had just ended his sentence on i would have to forgive him if he had won...
I would gladly lose to him... but he had to add saying that HE HAD DONE NOTHING WRONG...

During dinner... he said... he can do without communicating with me but i can't...
i told him he was right...
he dun gt the point.. Wat's the use of having a boyfriend when your life wif him is at good as being single?
The onli thing different is that having a boyfriend = someone paying for u when u go out...
Den why do i nid a boyfriend???? I might as well go get a sugar daddy....

he does not and just like me... Will never understand each other... i just feel like I'm nobody to him... he said he cares... but his actions show that i'm not even number 2 in his heart... I just feel that the love between us is diminishing... maybe he's already tired of being wif me...

Damned... oh well... it's ok.... it's him... who he is...
and me... who i am...
i will not expect any thing from him anymore...
nothing... if he wants to break up wif me... so be it...

exams coming soon...

2007-11-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

wahaha... exams are coming in less than a month's time...
so i stop working le...
thinking that i can reali study... but no...
been lazing ard lately... argh!!!!
wahaha... can't believe myself...

i dunno why... been very upset wif my results so far...
i mean i did my best to write my assignments but the results reali sucks...
wahaha... my life sucks...

been quite upset wif mr Ben too...
yup... he keep on saying that if i love him den will forgive his mistakes...
dotz... dotz... dotz.... sorry I dun feel this way...
he said he forgave all my mistakes...
wahaha.. but i'm SUPER PETTY OK!

sucks sucks sucks...
i dun wanna talk to him sometimes lor...
maybe i'm being childish... but it just dun make sense to me....

I can't tell my mum that he's my bf... but to show that i care abt us..
i brought him to see my cousins... den did some stuff for him...
but he??? pple ask him why he appear in Jurong... he said meet friend...
dun dare say meet girl friend... and dat people is not EVEN his CLOSE FRIENDS!
just someone he saw before... damned dotz lor... i tot i shld be the one dat say i'm onli meeting fren since it's at JURONG POINT...

den nvm.... after the movie at abt 9.45pm... he say he dun wanna send me home... so sweet lor... so i told him: i oso dun expect friend to send me home... it's at night lor... he dun even wanna send me to the interchange... at least wait for me to go up the bus rite?

den nvm.... i remembered our anniversary... so i sent him a letter that he wld receive on 1st nov... he say he din forget our anniversary just waiting for me to send him a msg... lolx... i dun believe... why??? when he asked me why nv send him msg, it was 9 plus 10... means he already reach home and saw the letter i sent him lor... nvm... while he was asking me... he NV DID SEND ME A MSG SAYING 'happy anniversary' dotz dotz.... so i send him a msg saying "i'm angry because he nv wish me anniversary" the next morning... he totally ignore... that whole day oso nv msg me... ok lor... i dun wanna msg him too...

nvm... if i nv msg him he oso won't msg me... den ok lor... we dun msg each other lor... wat's the point of promising me good morning msgs everyday when he can't even do that... if he don't keep his promise, why shld i keep mine?

maybe all aries r like dat... they changed once they win your heart... i sick of telling him the same old ting because all he will say is...

Have u realise i nv complained at all? because I love you so i'm willing to accept all ur faults...
and how many times muz i say?! i'm not that kinda of wei ren... I'm just a girl who will feel insecure too... feel that there's no future at all...

can u imagaine... if we r already liddat, dun even wanna send a msg to care for each other just barely pass a year of being together... i dunno how long we can last... in fact... i feel like i'm single now... lolx...

damned it... oh well... it's ok... i shld concentrate on my studies... maybe i shld just study... wahaha...

My CouSin's WeddiNg!

2007-10-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

on 29th sept 2007, my CouSin Mabel got MaRRiED!!! haha... and so I became one of her 'sisters'... lolx..
Had to wake up super early in the morning... she got her make-up artist to make up for us... haha.. and so we all transformed... haha... take a look at us after make up...

Haha.... it was quite tiring... but it was fun looking too... haha...

sch and stuff

2007-09-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

wahaha... the last time i blogged was on 30th jul... that was so long ago... lolx... been busy... busy with work, studies... and driving... my 'weight' lost programme has been a flop... wahaha... can't stop myself frm eating... wahaha... The Deck (our canteen) is trying to make me fat... with BK... fries so close by for me to eat... lolx... lerk thai has great cheap thai food... wahaha... not fogetting our original canteen too... BUT i must say... i was quite disappointed with the new DECK... the food was not as GOOD as it was before... at least the western food and Jap food was much tastier back when i was in year 1... lolx... oh well... i guess you gain some you lose some... u gain a new renovated DECK but lost the original taste of food... lolx..

work is almost the same... except for the fact we have a new pretty girl... and a big china man... wahaha... Pretty girl's name is YuYing... She is super fair and skinny.... Looks very adorable and cute... onli 2 things that I dun like abt her... coz it totally spoilt her image... first... She's super good in vulgarities.... Everything she say sure got CB and stuff... wahaha... I oso not dat good since lately being using Ta Ma De quite freq when ever I'm pissed... anyways.. it realli spoilt her image... coz she reali looks super cute!!!! next... she Smokes... :( sad case... y do youngsters now adays smoke????? she's onli 19.... :( why she smoke???? :| if onli she dun smoke and dun speak in that manner... I'm super sure she can marry into a rich family le... she realli got that X factor.... lolx..

ok... here comes another China man... working in Singapore... ok... dun realli talk to them(there is another girl too)... wahaha... i have neutral feelings abt them... bt dunno wat to say to them... they fully cannot understand English... but the guy reali pick up fast... at least he can understand basic like 'wat's the price?' wahaha... feel that his agency is earning him alot of money... getting him into S'pore... they charge him S$9000... wahaha... i should work for agency that brings china pple here... that's easy money lor... tink air ticket plus the room to stay not even 2000 lor...wahaha

Back In Singapore!!!!!!

2007-07-30T00:19:00.000+08:00

yes yes... I'm Back... Back in Singapore!!! wahaha...
Trip to taiwan rocks!!!! lolx... Wish i was still in Taiwan... lolx..
Oh well... let see wat i can say abt my taiwan trip...

[Taiwan trip...]
I went to Taiwan on the 23rd Jul 2007...
It was my first time taking plane... and i chose Jetstar...
Jetstar is a very small plane wif onli 3 seats on left and rite..
so I got a window seat... lolx...

[seating by e window]
I love the view of clouds... it gives me a feeling of serenity...
when i looked at e clouds i had quite a lot of thinking in my mind...
feel that sometimes life is just like taking a plane...
the more u wanna reach out to certain goals (like the clouds), the higher u fly...
yet sometimes u still fail to get them (clouds are no longer solid clouds when u r among them) and so u try to fly higher w/o realising tat they are already within ur grasp or u just miss them when they are ard u... lolx..

[Jetstar]
Jetstar is very small plane... when i'm sitted in my seat... there was hardly any space to move... cldn't move my legs at all... lolx... there was nothing much to do so i slept most of the time during my trip on e plane... I reach C.K.S airport at abt 6 plus... it was quite cool to see Taipei on the plane... houses ard the airport are mainly farm plots so I was getting excited about this new place that I was going to visit..

[trip frm Airport to Hotel]
after we left airport... we were wondering if we shld take bus or taxi to hotel...
thank goodness that I have a Taiwanese Customer (thnks to working @ Song Bro) who called me 2 days before to tell me a cheap way of getting fr Airport to hotel...
he told me to take the express bus (guo Guang) frm Airport to Taipei Train Station... which cost onli NT125 per person... den i can choose either to take MRT to Ximending or cab coz it's not very ex... Cab fr Airport to Hotel cost abt NT1200... but by listening to my customer... we onli spend NT350 in total... NT100 for cab fr taipei station to hotel :)

[Royal Castle Hotel]
Arrived at Hotel at about 7 plus... the hotel pple they were very friendly :) they were all very polite... not onli that... they have beautiful smile :) and... maybe coz the hotel is not very big (3 star so wat u expect?)... they actually remember which rm u stay... :) coz u suppose to gif them the keys when u gg out of the hotel... so ea time u return... before u even say ur rm they already take the keys out le to gif u...

[Hotel rm]
The hotel rm is small with no windows... BUT! they have very comfortable beds and excellent service... They might be small but ea rm has its own Bath Tub :) wahaha and they change all e toiletries daily... so practically I was using brand new toothbrush everyday!!! lolx... they gave us 2 single beds but we wanted a double bed so initially we wanted to change rm... but decided not to coz i was to lazy to pack my stuff to move to a new rm the next day... the hotel staff very nice... wat they did was they close the gap between the 2 single beds by not onli pushing them tgt but oso fix the bed sheets such that there is NO gap between e bed... Next... in the rm we have our own Hot and Cold water dispenser... so there was no nid to cook our own water at all... and the drinks in e fridge is not expensive at all...

(a foto of me posing in the rm...)

[1st nite at taipei]
1St nite... we went to Shilin Nite market... it was full of pple...
lots of things to buy but i din buy coz u can find them in S'pore too...
the clothes they have i oso dun tink i can fit in... lolx...
the main thing we did was to Eat! there was lots of food stall... and i reali mean lots! We ate Ah Zhong Mee Sua... it was DAMN NICE!!!! SEDAP!!!! Oishii!! when u go taiwan u muz remember to eat Ah Zhong Mee Sua... it's reali very nice and cheap... it's onli about S$2 onli... lolx... we ate Takopachi/takoyaki... it's quite special coz they add wasabi to it... quite nice too... we also ate Quail eggs... it's like fishball on sticks but with some sauce added so quite salty... the fried chicken chop is super big... most of the food there is of GIANTITIC SIZE... they sell hotdogs there too... and their hotdogs are thicker den my fist and about the length of my lower arm... lolx... we had some drinks got jelly in dem one... call frog eggs... it's quite nice... lolx...

[7-eleven stores]
they have 24hrs store every other street... but u muz remember to bring ur own bag coz they dun gif plastic bags... they sell u at NT1 ea... lolx... they have tea eggs in every store and r super nice too :)

[Mister Donuts vs Dunking Donuts]
I must say Mister Donuts r much nicer than Dunking Donuts... lolx... donuts at M.D. is super soft and not too sweet... it's much nicer den dunking donuts coz their donuts not as soft... u dun have to bite much or chew much when eating MD donuts... it's super nice... wahaha.... u shld try it when u go Taiwan..

ok... shall end here... my first day at Taipei... me now very tired wanna go slp... lolx... show u guys something... i saw this super cute car during my trip... lolx...

Feeling Great!

2007-07-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

haha... I feel great! lolx... keep on thinking my upcoming Taiwan trip makes me super happy! lolx... I just wanna enjoy myself... lolx...

life has been great lately... little disappointments in life but still life is quite kind to me... wahaha... ok... just watched Harry Potter... Cho Chang reali super disappointing lor... i tot she looks much better last year... this year she reali looks sucky... wahaha... ron has been ugly frm the start so not much to say... butt the show was quite good la... abit of dotz but still ok... lolx... the dark lord reali ugly... lolx.... so goes to show... if you've got an evil heart, it'll show on your face too... lolx...

been sick for the past wks le... ear problem ok le... that's great... hahaha.... been dreaming lots lately.... tink my boss if see my sales result for this month will puke blood ba... wahaha... who cares... ok... i'm super happy...

the hormone pills i gt frm the doc is working perfectly well... my period has been brought ON TIME!!! yay... no clashes with my trip... lolx... wahaha.... period's been getting later and later thanks to stress at work... wahaha.... gained some weight le... but dun care now... wait till my taiwan trip finish first den intensive weight lost programme... me going to swim!!! lolx... who wanna join me... lolx... haven been seeing all my dear friends like Phy, Glen, Jul etc... miss them so much...
wahaha... good things seem to be coming along my way... Dad finally called home so i know he's not dead...

haha... by the way... I've been very kind to my sister... gave her one of my line... yes... my hp... so now... I onli got one left and that is 83330290... so if you wanna contact me... pls call or msg this no. k... dun msg the other one if not u'll be talking to my sister... lolx... shall end here.... bleeding rite now and happpy to tell the world i'm bleeding... wahaha...

bored...

2007-06-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

bored... again...

haha... 26th jun and I'm gonna haf my FTT... NOT PREPARED AT ALL...
Damned... wahaha... bored... bored with working... depressed... very depressed...
tink it has something to do with my period... feel depressed suddenly...
if i ever gonna haf a kid after i'm married i tink i very easy will get pre-natal depression... lolx... sucks... sales bad... super bad... negative for a long time...
wonder if i would pass my target this month... been going on a crazy diet...
eating onli rice with egg for lunch for the past few days... lolx...
been coughing... sucks again.... cough till my throat hurts... ARGH!!!

Juz caught a measuring tape and started measuring myself... lolx...

ok... my waist is like 29 inch... that's like super thick! haha...
i've got a super big butt.... 39 inch... lolx... and my thighs...
24 inch... lolx... that's like the waist line of celebrities lor! wahaha...

damned... lolx... I hate myself... lolx... so fat... butt so big.. argh!!!! damned...

will someone pls tell me a fast weight to get the fats off me!!!! lolx...
Been excited about the trip to taiwan! Connie juz told me her air ticket is like 100 bucks cheaper... coz she arriving at a later date... lolx... i'm going on the 23rd... she going on the 25th... and it's 100 bucks diff... wth... lolx...

Been reading TENSHI JA NAI!(I'm not an angel!) lolx... i reali like the first part when the girl and the teacher falls in love! wahaha.. but of course eventually she ends up with the lead guy... the teacher is just a small part... lolx... but makes my brain go wild! wahaha... if onli i was prettier den mayb Seow Boon (Xiao Wen) will like me too??? lolx... but we a bit no link since he phy teacher... i'm a bio student... haha... I tink i'm being an idiot... lolx... having a crush on Xiao Wen... lolc... but when i see seow boon on the street i still will go red larz... abit dotz rite?! dun tink he remembered me :( lolx... crazy thoughts...

Been seeing Dom a few times... lolx... his gf realli lian lor... cannot believe it...
crystal fell for tis kinda guy... lolx... wahaha... missed sch... missed the j1 1st 3 mths life... miss my kor jeremy... nv hear frm him a long long time ago... oh well... at least i'm still keeping touch with xiao fan... who refuses to tell me his taiwan trip with the army... Robert... I noe u reading... so when u plan to go online and tell me abt the trip? mayb meet someday??? lolx... when will i have a klass gathering again??? i'm missing everyone already....

I MISS PHY! JUL! lolx... Glen??? NOpe dun miss her... coz i see her quite often... lolx.... Taiwan!!!! Here I come... on the 25th of JULY... wahaha

Holidays

2007-06-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

holidays... being working and working... lolx.... nothing much except Working and WORKING! haha... Ok... getting pissed at customers... ESP. INDIANS CHINA BAOS AND SINGAPOREANS!!!! NOt to be racist... but apparrantly... INDIANS FRM INDIA AND CHINA BAOS HAVE THE WORST ATTITUDES! THEY DON"T NOE WAT IS BASIC COURTESY!!!!! ARGH!!!! I HATE THEM THE MOST....

I was being pretty rude to customer one day...
I asked him "Hi, may I help?'
He ignored me... Totally devoid of any basic courtesy to ans when pple ask u a question...
So I asked again, "sir may I help?'
Still ignored... so I got a little pissed...
and i raised my voice " SIR MAY I HELP?"
he looked at me FINALLY... he a little embarrased coz the customer beside him looked at him and me... See... make life diffcult for both me and him rite...
so my dear frens... if a salesman approaches you and ask if he could help u...
PLEASE HAVE THE COURTESY TO ANSWER: 'Yes.' or "No, it's okay, I'm just browsing'
Basic courtesy will tell u to answer them :)

NExt... Wat's with the young generation now adays??
THis CJC girl came with her mum to buy IPOD 30 GB...
So i asked, "hi, may I help?'
She replied "how much is the 30GB ipod?'
I answered: "365 Nett."
Before I can say anything else, SHE LEFT HER MUM AND JUST WALKED AWAY!
THAT WAS SUPER RUDE! ALMOST WANTED TO TELL HER MUM THAT HER DAUGHTER WAS SUPER RUDE TO JUST WALK AWAY UPON HEARING THE PRICE! AND HER ACTIONS WAS SUPER BIG! SHE JUST WALKED AWAY! I DIN TELL HER MUM HER DAUGHTER WAS SUPER RUDE BECAUSE BASIC COURTESY WLD TELL ME THAT IT WOULD BE RUDE TO TELL HER MUM THAT! SO I SMILED AND TOLD HER HER DAUGHTER LEFT AND BECAREFUL ABOUT SMALL SHOPS THAT GIVE 300 FOR IPOD 30GB and BLUFFING HER TO EITHER BUY ACCESORIES AND JACK THE PRICE UP OR CONDEMN IPOD... I WAS ONLI MAKING 10 DOLLARS and LESS PROFIT! WILL SINGAPOREANS AND INDIANS AND CHINA BAOS STOP THINKING THAT THE COMPANIES SUCH AS SONY AND IPOD WOULD SET THEIR RETAIL PRICE SO HIGH THAT THEY MAKE 100 DOLLARS PROFIT FRM YOU! AND PLEASE DO NOT JUST WALK AWAY AFTER YOU HEAR THE PRICE! IT"S SUPER RUDE! THE RIGHT THING TO DO, is LIke some 'Ang Mohs' 'IS THIS THE LOWEST YOU CAN OFFER?' and if you realli think that it's too expensive for you... PLEASE... BEFORE YOU WALK AWAY... AT LEAST say "It's ok, I'll think about it.' or "Thanks, I'll go shop around first.' IT IS EXTREMELY RUDE TO JUST WALK AWAY! and SINGAPOREANS... PLEASE DO NOT BECAUSE OF 5 DOLLARS difference... U go to the shop which is 5 dollars cheaper to buy and ignore the fact that the salesman that served you previously and offered you 5 dollars more ex den this shop, had painstakingly EXPLAINED everything to you... including the diff between MP3 n MP4... n all the questions u had in your mind... Kindly GO back the the salesman and say that the other shop offered you 5 dollars cheaper and ask if he could match the price. IT IS SO DAMNED IRRITATING TO SEE THAT SINGAPOREAN CUSTOMERS BOUGHT the same thing frm other shop and smiling to tell me that they were 5 dollars cheaper when I WASTED 1 HOUR to DO DEMO and ANSWER ALL THEIR QUESTIONS!

Shall stop for now... haha

haha... give up on studying

2007-04-26T15:29:00.000+08:00

current location... school...
lolx... finished my Jap exam at 1100 hrs... and having exam for Nm2219 later at 5pm... but I AM NOT STUDYING!!! Give up le... totally... tired of studying...
haha... shit... lolx... hopefully i can pass the paper... lolx...
oh ya... me PasS my Basic Theory le... super happy :)

my exams so far are a mess... realli dunno wat to say...
haha... hard luck... but considered super lucky today...
Coz TAKEDA sensei waited for me before he started the listening test...
lolx... Stupid bus was stuck in traffic due to rain... lolx... i was so scare coz listening compre is onli played once... I was late for exam :( lucky Takada sensei nv start yet... haha... Summore my seat all the way at the back of the exam hall... he very nice... he waited for me to run to my seat... sit down le den he say wanna start.. den he walked to my table and reminded me to write my matric no on my exam script :) I'm super happy... lolx... I LOVE TAKEDA SENSEI!!! Takeda sensei ga todemo Suki desu!!!! lolx... the listen compre sucks... it was super fast... cldn't catch wat they were saying... lolx... it was very obvious that it was Takada sensei's voice on the recording... perhaps it's cause Takeda sensei's voice so I din catch the content??? lolx... Takeda sensei rocks... even if he gives me a C he still rocks... i love him...

Had lunch with my frenz frm Jap Klass... super funny... i realised that they are rich kids... super rich... since one came frm other country... the other was a scholar.... going to England i think next sem for exchange programme... so smart... her bro is a plastic surgeon in-training... lolx... she's doin theatre studies... argh... her ex-boy fren was a jap name Yuji... haha... she taught us some exercises supposedly to firm ur breast, butt, arms... lolx... i will go home and try... the other of my fren frm Sri Lanka talked about her life there... she was frm private school... she takes bus onli for fun back at home coz it's realli scary since everyone like squashed into the bus... she dun work and she's realli bad at directions... but she is nice :) she reali talks and it's realli interesting.. haha though i dun reali like the girl who's brother is a surgeon... It's just me... e poor kid having something against the rich... it's she's gives me the kinda feelings that she's like flaunting??? lolx... but it's nice talking to them... realli helps me to get all the show biz news...

Things I never knew... lolx... all the hollywood stars and relationships... it's realli the first time I had a normal girl's talk... I dun mean it's not normal to talk to Glen and Jul when we slp together... but it is not those kinda of showbiz entertainment kind of talk... I nv knew that Kate Hudson (hope i've spelt correctly) had an affair with Owen Willson... things like that... Victoria Beckham's best fren is Kate Cruise... yup yup... it was more of a dirty talk with glen and jul... lolx... it was an eye opener for me... fun nevertheless but I'll stick with my dirty talks with Jul and Glen coz it's so US... lolx...

I saw Yin Liang aka Lao Dao today at clementi... he dun recongise me... summore forget my name... can onli say.. I know u... shu chuan's lao po (nick name during the first 3 mths in PJ) haha... he still looks the same... he say i look different... can be taken postively or negatively... i prefer postively... lolx...

watch LOVE and HONOUR with dear on monday... haha... finally saw dear... after so long so super happy... absence makes the heart grow fonder... lolx.. the show was boring... except the nice kimonos... the lame jokes of Kimura Takuya... basically... the whole 2 hour show can be summarised as follows:
Setting is peaceful and ending era of the Samurai... Food tasting aka posion tasting for the lord is part of a Samurai's job. Kimura was one of these samurai. One day while tasting... he got poison and lost his sight. Since he lost his sight he was not able to work at the castle any more and most likely lose his job and money so his 'NICE' relatives had a meeting. At the meeting, they suggested his beautiful wife to meet a high rank samurai to talk to the lord to allow Kimura to keep his pay. the wife know the high rank samurai got ill designs on her but coz of living she went anyway... She was raped by the samurai for the exchange of his pay, and she had intimate relationship (in other words sex) with him for 2 more times coz he threathen to tell on her to Kimura. Fr the irritating aunt (part of his 'NICE' relatives) told him that her husband saw his wife with another man. Kimura den checked on his wife and his wife told him the truth. He was angry and divorced his wife though he loved her. He den found out frm his samurai frenz dat that High Rank samurai din talk to the lord at all. Kimura still got his high salary pay coz the lord felt that if it was not for Kimura, he would have died of poisoning so he felt that he should repay him by giving him his yearly pay so Kimura can still live his normal life. Kimura got madder since the high rank official just BLuff his wife and raped her so he dual the high rank officer... High rank officer lost his left arm while fighting with Kimura and he decides to kill himself for HONOUR... Kimura's wife came home to work as a maid and cook for him but since he ate her cooking for so long le... of course he knew it was her and hugged her and stuff... And they 'live happily ever after'. End... haha... that's the storyline and amazingly... it can be used to produce a 2 hr film... lolx...

haha... reviews for this movie 3 stars... its reali boring... except for Kimura who always crack funny jokes..

finally blogged

2007-04-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

haha... haven been blogging... coz too lazy le..
plus... trying hard to study... but not much of things went into the brain..
been Adsorbing instead of Absorbing... Tml's my paper..
my NM tHeOry paper!!! argh... can't remember all the theories...
can't spell them anyways... social cognitive theory??? inoculation theory???
Agenda setting theory??? Propaganda theory??? so many more... argh...
hate my life.... worse... i can't define anyone... haha...
will hugging the text book be helpful to me??? haha... summore tml i got basic theory test too... super scared... wat if i dun pass??? cant remember all e signs lei... argh!!! :(
Haven been seeing much of dear too... miss him... but at e same time a little angry wif him la... I know he wants me to concentrate on my studies so he dun msg me at all till i msg him... argh!!! dun like him le... wahaha... ok la... at least he got reply my msg... lolx...

Phy... I miss u!!! haven been seeing you so you muz jia you ok?! study hard den we can go sing K... lolx.. all those studying now... Jia you ok... We can make it! lolx

Vending machines...

2007-04-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

The number one thing that you can find in NUS is not only lots of LTs...
but lots of VENDING machines!!! lolx... everywhere u go... sure got 1 vending machine one...

haha... we've got lots of different kinds...
Drinks got those bottle ones which i tink damned cool and I always buy...
got can ones... dey are realy very cold so nice to drink...
den got the cup ones... Not worth the money and NO ICE!

Lin Ting wanted to try the sandwich vending machine... haha...
She din dare coz she scare not fresh... den Justina told her it's changed everyday so it's fresh... so let me tell you guys... Lin ting's rite...
ITS NOT FRESH! why??? I saw the process of how they change the stuff in e machine...
it's true... they come everyday... For 2 days i watched open e machine...
guess wat... they DO NOT change e stuff... they merely added new ones...
they'll top it up till there's 30 packets... so if u wanna eat... pray that 30 pple had eaten before u so u can get the fresh ones... lolx... but... I still tried...
this is the EPPM... too high the level of fear... pple wld juz tink of something else to avoid it... I juz tell myself... i won't be so unlucky to get the overdue ones... lolx... same with the smoking ad... i ask my smoking fren wat she though about the new poster... she said... I know it's fake one... lolx... see... high levels of fear appeals do NOT work...

busy busy busy

2007-04-10T17:17:00.000+08:00

this wk and last wk were busy weeks for me... lolx... i'm so busy... trying to do my project...
lolx... tml is doomsday since i have my jap oral test...
lolx... Ting yi gave me the photo she helped sensei and me take... lolx... super happy... he's so supercute...
I hope he'll be my examiner tml... lolx... Sensei ga dotemo suki desu!

Happy and sad...

2007-04-06T17:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last lecture for my japanese..
Quite sad.. coz it's the last time I get to see Takeda Sensei...
haha.. But i made him take picture with me... I asked him in my most perfect japanese...

'Sensei, watashi no tomodachi wa sensei ga dotemo suki desu kara, sensei, shashin o torimasenka?'

which translate to: coz my fren likes u alot, can i take ur picture?

haha... so I took his pic!!! and he REMEMBERS my NAME!!! Here's Takada and ME!!! :)

I dropped my laptop... my heart is broken now... sorry baby... shld have been more careful...

Mum and Sis now at M'sia.. I hate NEO KOK BENG.. it's cause of HIM dat's i'm in SINGAPORE and NOT in MALAYSIA at THIS INSTANCE!!!

stupid brain

2007-03-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

this is a post in which i hate myself again...

[Ben and I]
I hardly tot about ben n i on my blog...
din wan him to accidentally read it...
but den again... dun tink he ever vists my blog so...
here goes watever that's in my heart for qutie sometime...

first... there are problems between Ben and I...
it's really amazing that we are still tgt till now...
guess it's due to me unable to let go...
plus all the reasoning that Linus and Steven has being helping me to see...

frankly speaking... i think i'm not suited to be in a relationship...
I onli bring harm to my other half... that's wat i feel...
nv good enough for anyone... and too selfish anyway...
I'm too childish when facing a relationship... serious... or that's what i feel...

I always wanted to tell ben about my true feelings...
but ended up i din... told him the surface problem between he and I
but always failed to mentioned the real thing that bugs me...
I feel that if i told him wat bugs me, it's gonna sound very childish...
Linus say i shld tot it out wif him so he can guage if it's childish...
but i juz can't bring myself to say it...

Steven juz say that if i'm happy being wif ben den dun worry so much...
when it's time to let go... juz let it go...

I wish i cld juz do that... i guess it's not me to be so cool...
Letting go when it's time to...
being wif ben... it's both happiness and sadness...
It's always nice to haf someone who cares about u...
but it juz feels so wrong with me when I juz can't trust him...
whenever he tells me his going away for the wkend to M'sia wif his frens...
my heart starts worrying... i wld start wondering if he wld ever betray me...
Glen told me I shld juz get out of the stupid shadow of betrayal...
but for some unknown reason I can't... I juz can't do it...
perhaps it's easier to live in e shadows... giving me a gd reason for not trusting him... his truthfulness to me is not helping... juz can't forget the past i guess...
mayb i've been watching too much soap operas... believing that every good man on this earth is close to extinction...

When Ben went for 1 wk trip to M'sia... I knew we had serious problems because i can't stop worrying wat he wld do there w/o me... plus linus and his joking remarks then were not helping... in the end... I cried on the way back home... I noe ben and I won't last... not when i keep having this worrying feeling in my heart... it hurts... which made me wonder why should we stay together?

I feel that Ben n i are worlds apart...
our thinking are all different...
wat i wld expect him to do...
he doesn't do it... of course... the things I wanted him to do realli makes me feel childish when I'm upset that he din do it...

I wanted him to send me home frm IT show the last wk
coz I was having my period, 2nd day... Bloody bad back aches...
n think coz IT show too loud or wat... I was feeling fainty (NOT DUE TO LOST OF BLOOD) and had ghastly look in the afternoon... I was hoping he wld come send me home so at least I cld seek comfort from him) Asked Ben if he was coming (din tell him I was fainty... he just knew abt the backaches) he said no coz he was tired... I really wanted him to come but he was tired so I tried telling myself dat... but nevertheless I was disappointed... I AM BEING CHILDISH!

on the 3rd day of IT show... I was super tired... den he told me dat he's going to M'sia wif his frens to eat seafood so he won't come to send me home... I was upset again... another childish act... I'm being so childish dat I feel so frustrated about myself...

Guilt... Guilt in our relationship is suffocating me...
Guilt that derives frrom hiding this relationship fr mum...
Guilt for spending so much of Ben's money...
Guilt that coz of the two above... which makes me feel like some kinda mistress...
Taking Ben's money... esp. so when I leave his house at nite... taking cab back alone... it makes me feel like I'm some kinda of mistress or worse...
Guilt that I can't tell him my real feelings...
Guilt of knowing that he dotes on me yet I can do nothing for him...
Guilt that come frm him, giving into me most of the time...
Guilt that comes frm the fact I couldn't trust him completely..
Guilt that comes frm knowing that he deserves someone better...
It's suffocating me... and though he tries hard to give me security...
there's none I felt... Nothing at all... I'm juz so insecure...
Juz feel that we'll nv meant to be...
wanted to gif up but juz can't let go...

I noe we can't nv understand each other... Never...

being irritating.... haha... entertaining my group mates

2007-03-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

ever since this sem started, I think i'm getting more and more bimbotic.... lolx...
my brains since to have disappear... lolx... oh ya...
current location... LT 12... NM lecture... i must remind myself that i nid to study for my jap tutorial later...
haha... yesterday Takeda sensei picked me out from the crowd... super happy... i love Takeda sensei...
haha... he's so 'charming' haha... i juz love his sense of humour.... lolx... and most importantly he REMEMBERs me!!!
lolx... I love takeda sensei... Jap's getting difficult.... Malay??? NO HOPE Le!!!! just had my malay test the day before... lolx...
guess wat... i totally dun understand what the test is all about... damned... lolx.... i can onli say... SAYA DAK FAHAAM BEHASA MELAYU... lolx.... watashi wa nihongo ga wakarimasu :) lolx.... ok....
btw... my lecturer juz shock us by saying 'let's dicuss about CYBER SEX now.' (she meant cyber space) lolx...
ok... have anyone seen the recent issue of FHM????? i tink it sucks... totally.... e GNDs??? onli 2 are pretty lor...
can't believe i actually paid 6 bucks to read it... but at least I get to see Miss Malaysian... she's HOT!!! i love her! lolx...

21st April... Fuhua Primary School is have class 1999 reunion.... interested individuals u can leave me a note at my tag board...
lolx... We are having a dinner at Giraffe... and mayb later clubbing... so Ex-Fuhua students... pls pls turn up... lolx...

ok... the guy beside me is corny... trying to seek attention frm my lecturer... he's using K800i and taking a photo...
he's smart to make sure there's no sound (the camera snap sound) but not smart enough to OFF the FLASH! in the end... hahah... sudden... the LT is light up wif lightning like FLASH! lolx... *sighs* why do i have a group mate like him????
Reminded me... shall introduce my goup mates... Just now that smart guy... he's name is Jia Tao... the world's so small... i see him in both my NM lectures... n i tot he's the bf of my TA klass girl... lolx...

Next... Jovian... He's scary... first look... u tot that his a decent guy... but den... lolx.. he's the no. guy who use F*** during our meeting... lolx.. we always tease him wif Matilhda... lolx... but they do seem to be a sweet couple tgt... lolx... which reminds me... the guys in my Gp... They are super corrupted... girls and girls... side dishes and side dishes... Porn and more Porn... though Jia tao says it's very shallow... but my guess is he's the no. one Porn fan... indulge in Porn... lolx... mayb Sim Lim has polluted my brain long ago... so it's not surprising... when SLS... guys practically keeps porn in their handfones... lolx

Next.. Matildha... mayb I scared her... she tinks i'm lesbian... lolx... haha... but den again... Everyone thinks i'm bi rite??? lolx... in the end... i showed her dear and my photo to set her heart at ease.... haha... but i must say.... i like mat... she's got something... i dun noe wat... but she's lyk so... lolx... if i'm a guy... i sure date her... lolx...

last and not least... Att... he's basically nice... weird sense of humour... lolx... he works at Funan.... another computer expert other den Jovian... lolx... he's got a reali nice mother-in-law who gave him 250 EUROS for new year... why can't i have a mother-in-law like his???? lolx... mayb I shld travel to Europe and hook up some cute European hunks... lolx... dun tink they'll think i'm fat since western pple are all big size ya... lolx... yay!!! haha...

dat's all now... my bladder's full and cant tink... wonder when the lecturer;s gonna gif us a break.... nid the loo... being trying to Ren for the last 30mins... pls... pls.. hurry up... n pls notice how stupid i'm getting.... I forgot the spoon when I bought my mash potato... :( hungry

stressed out... Pursuit of HappyNess!

2007-03-06T11:14:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging... why?
Busy @ sch... lolx...
first time in Natalie's life...
I'm actually busy... lolx...
Juz finished my presentation last fri...
was a close one... lolx...
supposed to be 2 wks work but we somehow manage to do it within 3 days...
lolx... lotsa test... haha... feel quite happy actually abt my NM2219's test...
din get a super good results... but it's ok for me... lolx... for a day's hardwork got 84/100... 50 mcqs... which means I got 7 wrong... lolx... well... my fren got better... his cool 98/100... 1 wrong answer.... POWER!!! lolx... His doing much better than me... lolx... his reaction paper (essay)... he got 83/100... i got only 70/100... lolx... still ok... at least din fail... lolx... i sure hope so... malay test is coming... TML!!!! but i'm totally unprepared for it... why???
I dunno how to start... rather lost in malay klass... lolx... I'm like so screwed!!!!
i just finished my Jap test last wk... HOrrIble! the listening test was like totally screwed up... they read in perfectly good japanese and very fast like japanese... the whole LT was like... 'Wow, did you heard what they said?' coz almost everyone cldn't catch it... me too... totally so screwed... lolx... hahah... looks like i'm still far frm 4As and 1 B+... lolx... last wk... project proposal got rejected by my prof and we had a heart to heart talk for abt an hr... totally crushed by his words... his comments were harsh... but nevertheless helpful... at least we know how to do the next step and trying real hard to salvage it.... lolx... our poor rejected proposal... lolx... still got NM2219 project which i haven even started... damned... lolx... looks like a busy sem for me... lolx.. i'm typing super loudly in the lib... annoying everyone sitting next to me... lolx... trying to see if my speed is fast enough... unfortunately... the girl beside me... haha... she's much faster than i am... lolx... scary.... it's like super fast.. lolx... mayb 100 wpm? lolx.... dunno la... day after tml working at IT fair... money!!!! lolx... after this wk... i'm so gonna buck up... start studying real hard le... start reading and making notes le... lolx... i hope to at least save my grades.... lolx... :) phy... all the best for ur trip and may you win a medal... we shall start our studying next thur... lolx... MugGeRs RuLz!!!! and pls remind me not to spend so much time playing... which reminds me..

I went to watch Pursuit of HappYness wif dear yesterday....
it's a nice movie... 120 mins... lolx... it's really good coz it teaches u not to give up on life... even though the main character was having really bad times that he even cried... but then... he held on... so.. in the end, he succeeded...
Guess wat they trying to say is NOT u hold on n u'll definately succeed...
BUT... even when life seems so bleak, hold on... there sure be a bright road ahead...
so i guess though studying is stressing everyone out... but hold on... and the bright road comes on the day u get ur results :) no matter if they are good or bad... they tell you... it's time to rest... coz it's HOLIDAYS after the exams!!! lolx.... well... i wanna go taiwan... lolx... thinking of going to Taiwan wif dear to celebrate our 1 yr... haha... that wld be in July and that's if we are still tgt... lolx...

Dear completely forgot abt our anniversary on 1st march... seems like only if i msg him or drop him hints den he can remember :(

life is full of irony...

2007-02-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i last blogged...
first of all... i would like to wish everyone...
A HAPPY CNY!!!!! wahaha...

[life is full of irony...]
this is something I took note of a long time ago... and felt the irony...
If you guys have been watching TV ads... u wld see...
LI NAN XING in his anti-'over-gambling' campaign...
asking Singaporeans not to get addicted to gambling exp. so in CNY (wat else can we do besides gambling in CNY? boring tv shows lolx)
The irony???? Singapore POOLs came up wif several 'CNY gambling packages'
they have $338 'hongpaos' ready to be purchased where you'll get big sweep tickets, 4Ds and stuff...
While the government organisations come up wif 'anti-gambling abuses'
they allowed Singapore POOLs to come up wif more and different ways of gambling...
take soccer for example... they used to accept 1 dollar bets... now? the minimal is 5 dollars...
they din had so many diiferent kinds of betting for soccer, now they have lots...
like half-time, full time, championships etc....
for 4D... they used to have only the normal 4D with system roll...
now they have ibet and roll for one of the numbers...
Aren't what Singapore POOLs doing encouraging people to bet and gamble?
find more excuses for gambling?
wich made government organisations reali hypocritical isnt it?

today i witness an incident which made my blood boiled...
i realised that ever since Singapore became lenient in granting visas to PRC's citizen...
I started to do more and more reverse discrimination against my own race - CHINESE...
Esp. so when I see PRC CHINESE!
another incident happened today wif PRC which made my blood boiled (mayb coz I discriminate against them and so the evil side of them stays in my brain for a long time)

I was in a shop that sells comics and mags and the shopkeeper caught a china boy (have to specify) tearing up the plastic cover layer which acted like a seal to stop people frm reading the mag before it's sold. The latter was doing it secretly hidding beneath cupboards hoping that he won't be found. His intention was to read the mag w/o buying and mayb he wld put the opened mag back or shoplift (that we will nv noe since he was caught before he could do anything more)
So the shopkeeper told the boy that he shouldn't tear open the plastic coz the mag is for sale. like an IPOD, if you tear of the plastic of the IPOD box up, no one wld buy coz it's opened. The boy apologised and said he wanted to read the book but the shopkeeper explained that he should not open the plastic and hafta buy the book. He did not believe that the boy tear the plastic w/o knowing that he should not have done it. Afterall, the boy hid beneath cupboards and did not tear it openly so it was quite obvious he knew he shouldn't open the mag. The shopkeeper then asked for his mother, so his mother came in and apologised and told the shopkeeper that she din have any money wif her as her money were all with her husband who was eating at the foodcourt. She told them that they would hafta wait for her husband to come.
A while later, her husband came. Her husband told the shopkeeper that his son was still young (at the age of 10) and did not realised that it was wrong. The shopkeeper then explained to the man that he would have to buy the mag because the plastic was already tore off and he would not be able to sell the mag. The man then started raising his voice, saying that the boy din damage the mag, so it was not reasonable that he pay for the mag. He told the shopkeeper to just put the plastic back. the shopkeeper then reply rasing his voice alittle too saying that 'it was impossible to put the plastic back since you need the heating equipment to seal the plastic wraper and that since it was already opened he could not send back to the supplier.'
the man then replied, ' It just a mag. My son did not damage it,he just wanted to read it you can just put the wrapper back. I already apologised for my son what more do you want? How can you be so unreasonable?'

The shopkeeper then replied 'ok, then can you put back the wrapper.'

The man then shouted 'On the plastic you did not state that it cannot be open! My son only wanted to read the mag that's why he tore it open. It was not stated that it can't be opened. How can you do business like that?! I went to so many stores, they didnt do business like that'

The shopkeeper was very mad, so his wife took over the conversation and tried as calmly as possible told the man, 'We did not scold your son or anything, the fact is that he tored open a mag and no one would buy that mag anymore, that's why you have to buy the mag.'

The man started screaming saying that they should provide an open mag to let people to read and that they hasn't state that the mag cld not be open. everyone was staring at them, so the wife of this man told her husband to stop screaming and that the fault had begun wif their son since he tore it open when he was not supposed to. The man wanted to continue the argument till his wife could not take it and shouted at her own husband. In the end, the man paid, but screaming as he paid saying that it was no fault of his son, and the shop was being unreasonable and that he had the money but he did not want to gif to this kinda black shop.

it was obvious that the china family was in the wrong. It was their son's fault for opening the mag, n yet they refuse to admit and pay for the mag. They had to make such a din in the shop, thinking that by raising their voice, they can get away with their mistakes. i think the ones unreasonable is not the shopkeeper, but the china man instead. If every other kid were to do the same and the shopkeeper just let the matter rest, wldn't he be losing money?

Happy Birthday To ME! Selamat Hari Jadi! Tanjobi Omedeto!

2007-02-09T18:14:00.002+08:00

Haha... Yesterday 8th Feb, marks Natalie (me) to be 20 years old....
So OLD!!! hit the BIG 2 le... haha....
First of all... I would like to say...
Thank you to Phy, Kee Onn, Glenda, Wakey, Jenny!!!!
thank you for celebrating my birthday for me :)
It was one of the best birthdays I ever had :)

We went prawning frm 9 pm to 4 pm...
The prawns we fished out were super big...
Giant size... lolx... the head of the prawn is as big as wakey's camera!
The length of the prawn is longer than wakey's face...
THAT's LIKE HUGE!!! lolx

Kee Onn was a very big help to us...
he helped us get the hooks off the prawns..
but he's a saddist... he totutred thet prawns
before killing them dor food.]

Happy Birthday To ME! Selamat Hari Jadi! Tanjobi Omedeto!

2007-02-09T18:14:00.001+08:00

my time table SUCKS!

2007-01-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

wahaha... my timetable sucks...
it's a fact... damned...
i have breaks LONG breaks between lessons...
making my sch ending at like 8pm, 6pm, 9pm....
Damned... hate it... i'm sick...
couging like there's no tml...
almost forgot how it's like to breathe through my nose...
:(
i'm dying... damned.... kill me....
高校時代を一緒に過ごしたころが懐かしいわね。

2nd wk of school and i'm screaming

2007-01-17T10:49:00.000+08:00

ok... i'm pissed... totally pissed with the sch tutorial registration...
THEY DID NOT WANNA GIVE ME A TUTORIAL SLOT WHEN IT"S THE ONLY ONE AVAILABLE THAT WON'T CLASH WITH MY OTHER LESSONS!!!!
i hate them.. now i got no free days at all... sucky... i hate tem... argghhhhh!!!!!!!!!
haha.. i'm at lecure now....
bloggin during lecture again... wat's new????
my second boyfriend is now.... PHYLLIS!!!! lolx...
i'm like seeing her very wk... for abt 2 days per wk...
lolx... that's like only one day less than days i meet ben... lolx

wahaha... sch reopens...

2007-01-12T12:36:00.000+08:00

[Location]: LT 12..
[Lecture]: NM2101
[Time]:1239

Wahaha... i'm in school now...
and I just realised something....
I like bloggin during my lectures...
esp. if they are getting boring...
damned... it's so boring...
lolx... i'm dying...
so let me update abt how's my life so far...
ok...
I spent abt 1000 bucks on wed on shopping...
omg... wahaha...
yesterday went for the jap lecture...
it's scary.... imagine if u walk into a lecture theatre...
den u see the lecturer wear FULL Suit....
wahaha... he speaks good english...
but he's so not funny and his teaching is not very good either...
he's jumping here and dere... tink JCS better... lolx..
well... fell asleep during the Malay class... lolx...
being a vain girl... i'm gonna scream...
my nail color's coming off... lolx
First part of the lecture juz ended...
it's so not funny and uninteresting...
theories and theoris....
lolx... i still like my NM2219 lectures better...
at least is fun... well... aft this lect...
i have a 4 hr break before i go to my level 3000 mod...
New pdt development for Biz... lolx...
6 PM to 9Pm...
i rock!

Sch reopens!!

2007-01-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

ok... current location... LT27...
Mod: Basic Organic Chemistry..
Guess wat??? I'm NOT allocated this mod...
wahaha... sitting here on Monday morning.... hoping to log on to Cors and bid for this mod...
I realised... the Chem pple r not a quiet bunch... wahaha...
Ok... quite cool actually... coz in my mind... the science pple are like the study bunch?
tis grp is certainly not.... wahaha... i'm irritated coz i can't log into Cors
though the time now is 1000,,, the bidding opened an hour ago...
mayb lotsa anxious cats like me... hoping to get their modules dat were outbidded...
wahaha...
ok... juz planed my timetable ytd... guess wat...
it's damned pack... it looked good w/o the tutorials slot in...
but the min i put the tutorial slots in... dat's it...
i'm like dead... lolx...
well... i tink the chem pple reali damned 'cute'
coz the lecturer is starting n it;s still damned noisy...
wahaha... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.... ok... lecture's starting...
so now... i'm gonna listening to the lecturer... it's not going well...
since she says that total no. of lecture hrs has juz increased fr25 hrs to 36 hrs...
wahaha....

updating to tell the world i'm still living...

2006-12-27T01:43:00.000+08:00

it's has been a long time since I last blogged...
better blog to update others abt wat's going on with my life...
lolx... been working... till late at nite so din have time to blog...
I'm so HAPPY!!!! I hit my target officially today... and I still have 10 more days to hit my own target of 6000 profit... wahaha... did 5100 profit... Company requires me to do 5000 profit min. to get my comm... and pay rise of 100 bucks frm 1500 to 1600... wahaha... super happy... tired... wahaha....
my world has juz shrunk... wahaha...
it's more of work... go out wif dear... ( :( losing contacts wif frenz)...
stay at hm to pei mummy... and dat's it... wahaha...
no one's free to see me.... wahaha...
well good thing is... at least Glen and Jul visited me the wk of Xmas n Xmas eve...
well... wanted to spend xmas with the twin and form the twin tower again... ended up... spend it wif dear... wahaha... our first xmas eve together... wahaha...
dear has become nicer in some way... and mean in other...
lotsa huggies... but he keeps on pinching me... and feeding me... so
Natalie has officially gone fatter again... lolx...
Paxson's my asst. store manager... he keeps on indirectly shoot me...
he dun hate me... but he like to say dat i'm fat... always indirect shoot...
always appear when i'm taking my lunch and dinner plus tea... ea time he looks at me... he says 'eating again ar???' damned... wahaha... but on the hold he's nice...
wahaha... Super funny... well... guess it's tis kind of pple dat makes working life fun... lolx

working

2006-12-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

wahaha... had nitemares abt failing uni...
who cares... it's over and ya... juz let nature take its course...
wahaha... been working... no life at all...
work start 1030 end at 9pm... no life!!! wahaha
was serving irritating customers on sat...
thank god today was much better...
served 2 french guys... and it was so happened that the guy's daughter had the same name as me... wahaha...
was sad yesterday... cried... but dear din noe...
he nv noes.... he onli noes when I'm angry but hardly notice that i'm sad...
here with me... yes he is...
but nt when I reali nid him... esp. when i need a shoulder to cry on...
mayb coz i wasn't dere when he nid me???
i dunno wat he's thinking...
neither does he noe mine...
thoughts in the brain... said and unsaid...
wat's the difference???
dun wanna care anymore... wahaha...
got to lose some weight! class outing tis sat...
wahaha...

dying soon...

2006-11-29T19:45:00.000+08:00

I guess if i failed all my mod this sem... i have no one to blame...
wahaha... I'm like slacking... another day wasted... lolx.. staring at computer screens...
that's wat i do best now... lolx.. oh ya... including blogging and listenin to Say it itsn't so...
OMG... nvm... I shall study next sem... wahaha... hopefully it won't be too late...
lolx... went to watch A BATTLE OF WITS today with dear...
it's was nice!!! I guess I just lyk watching battle shows where u see the general using their brains...
and of course the majestic view of the Army marching... I realli love the 'historic' B.C battle shows...
like lord of the ring... i guess i like the visual effects... lolx...wahaha...
I guess I'll be watchin the curse of the golden flower... wahaha... i like watchin people plotin against ea. other...
putting all morality to test... lolx... sadistic??? wahaha

cleared my FirSt exam

2006-11-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

Today's my FIRST paper EL... wahaha... guess wat...
Gonna fail even though it's open bk ar... wahaha...
left the examination hall before the paper's over...
why? no pt sitting dere to stone ar...
wahaha.... cool lor... moral low... no mood to study...
Worse... everyone's like finishing their exams...
And I'm only starting mine...
Looking forward to mon...
Wakey, me, phy and Jul going to play water!!!
wahah... i wanna ask them to play bmt before we go play Water..
wahaha... :)

All About You... :)

2006-11-27T20:48:00.000+08:00

3 posts on the same day...
shows u how bored i am...

[All About You] [By McFly]

It's all about you
It's about you
it's all about you baby
It's all about you
it's all about you
It's about you
It's all about you

yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile "it's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to
Say 'if you make my life worth while, it's all about you

And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what i'd do
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do
Dancing on the kichen tiles, it all about you
Yeah

And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to
but if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what i'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you made my life worthwhile
So i told you with a smile
It's all about you

It all about you
It's all about you
It's all about you, baby
It's all about you
it's all about you

it all about you
it's all about you

Say it isn't so by Gareth Gates

2006-11-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

[it was such a long time since i heard Say it isn't so]
[fell in love with it once more... so decided to move my muscle n type the lyrics here...]

[Say it isn't so] [by Gareth Gates]

Sikes are dark
it's time for rain
final call, you board the train
heading for tomorrow

i wave goodbye to yesterdays
wipe the tears, you hid your face
blinded by the sorrow

How can i be siling like before
when baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That i'm only dreaming
Tyat this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Mmmmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the doors behind you

Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, Whoa

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go
before i can say, before i can lay
my love for you to sleep
oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go
before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say i'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now
That i am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say i'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
i don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

[It's super nice!!! Wahaha... I love it!!!]
[Another song is Angels brought me here by Guy Sebastian!]

Angels Brought me here by Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey, but I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when I look into your eyes

My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see, what i see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear,
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams cam true, right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see, what I see
that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear
That Angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
Oh forever faithful
my dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see, what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear,
That angels brought me here
Yes they brought me here
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
you would know, it would be clear
that angels brought me here

A moment like this by kelly clarkson

What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't i'm crazy
When i tell your love is here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever that one special kiss
I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a more like this

Everything changges, but beauty remains
Something so tender I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming but till i awake
Can we make the dream last forever?
And i'll cherish all the love we share

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one speacial kiss
I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

The speed of waiting love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Some people search a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one speacial kiss
I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

exams...

2006-11-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna fail my exams... wahaha.. i mean my Maths and CL... mayb el...
but the EL exams is only 30% of the grade... another 30% fr test (which i failed both test) and 30% fr the proj (passed!!!!)
and 10% fr klass participation... wahaha.. I tink i might juz pass it... lolx...
ok... i'm like gonna fail CL totally... nv passed anyone of my assignments... still slacking... wahaha...
seriously gonna fail MATHS!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! I juz realised dat i'm the bottom 4%... so dere's no way i'm passing :(
sadded* given up hope... wahaha... EL's tml... wat am i doing here??? Slacking... wahaha.. i wonder when I'll get baq my proj results for JS and NM... like sort of hope that they wld help me pass my exams... lolx.. like the written paper is like abt 40% of my total grade... so really hoping that we did well for proj... wahaha...
slacker... i'm a slacker for sem 1... mum said i'm getting fatter...
I'm gonna run... I will.. and slim down... wanna go tanning... someone go wif me??? lolx
haha... been hanging out wif kee onn and phy lately... it's like finally i'm HANGING OUT WIF PHY!!!!!
wahaha super happy!!!! she's getting more and more corrupted and in e end, corrupting me... lolx..
wahaha... Kee onn... thanks for everything! Like talking to you!!! wahaha... ok.. muz admit it...
Kee Onn is now my foning partner... wahaha... thanks for my 'unreasonableness'... his handfone bill explode to 100+
wahaha... evil me refuses to call him using my hse fone (coz he gt free incoming)... end up he had to call my fone (got free incoming too!!! :) ) end up his bill exploded... wahaha... but kee onn's nice!!! hahaha... thanks for calling me n hear me whine... wahaha... talking to kee onn is lyk damned fun... we can talk for hours... yet it seems like minutes... lolx..
mayb coz both of us r crapy??? wahaha... but it's damned fun... laugh alot too... talked to him yesterday nite... wahaha
i was suppose to go to slp since I was very tired... but dunno why we end up talking for abt and hr... lolx..
n he was trying to convince me to call him using my hse fone.. but failed... coz i'm so comfortably lying on my bed :)
oh... tml's the start of my exams... but i've gt no mood to study... wahaha

Frustrations!

2006-11-15T12:53:00.000+08:00

argh!!!! haven been blogging... so listen to me complain....
let me complain abt my JS proj first!
Argh!!!!!!!
I wonder what the hell I'm doing here since e so-call leader is still not here yet...
time now is 1246... we suppose to have a meeting at 10...
dotz!!!!! yesterdat... i was already at HOME at 445 when she msged and asked for meeting at 620
in which she din even come... she cancelled the meeting while i WAS ON MY WAY TO SCHOOL!!!!
Argh!!!!! Irritating!!!!! She wanna be do-it-all... so she say pass all the info to her she'll write the report...
pls lor it doesn't work this way... in the end... I wrote finished the intro and stuff...
she edited frm last wk til now still haven finish yet... still haven finish doing the body...
expects us to do the conclusion when we dun haf the body... wth....

argh!!!!

ok... now... let me whine about work...

[Why do we like to serve Ang-Mohs tourists?]

ok... i was working at Sim Lim at Song bros when i overheard a Singaporean Couple said
'Let's go. They only wanna serve tourists.' They been waited for some time and notice that none of us served them.
I must say sorry to them. It was a mistake on my part since i looked at them, wondering if i should approach them...
coz they were busy talking to themselves and not really looking at any products... so frm my experience, it says... leave them alone, they'll ask if they need help... Sorry about that... but it promts me to think... why i like to serve Ang Moh tourists..

Coz they are very different from Singaporeans... Singaporeans always complain that the service industry in Singapore is not
doing its best yet in terms of service provided.. but hello... it takes 2 hands to clap! I felt so when i was just a consumer and this feeling grew stronger after I joined the service industry (sales rep).

Firstly... when customers are looking at our pdts... i would say ; 'Hi Sir, may i help you?'
8 out of 10 ang-mohs (based on my experience) wld reply either 'Yes, I'm looking for....' or 'No, thank you. i'm just browsing.'
The other 2 woud just smile and shake their head signalling that they don't need help
They make you feel like they really apprieciate the fact that you cared and asked...
5 out of 10 Singaporeans wld no 1.. choose to ignore n just look at the products and out of the 5, at least 1 would say to their partner who came to shop with them; 'they don't have ipods (when the ipods are just infront of them). Why don't they ask? esp. when i said, 'Sir May I help you?'
the other 5 singaporeans would tell them what they want, and only two of them would thank you for your services.
See... Ang-mohs are really nicer :)

Next situation...
When Serving Singaporeans... its really frustrating... coz you can spent like 1 hour serving them and explaining to them how the product is like and guess what... they can tell you things like 'Ok, I'll go check out the prices of other shops first, if yours is cheaper den i'll buy frm you.' It's understandable that they wanna buy at the lowest price... even angmohs do that sometimes.. .and the difference between the both is that... Singaporeans would just buy from the other shop if that shop is one dollar cheaper, they won't even bother to come baq and ask if you can match the price! They don't care if you offer them good services, they'll juz buy frm others if they are cheaper than yours. Angmohs? so much different! First if they think you offered a good service to them, esp. after serving and explaining them for 1 hr, they'll check the prices of other shops and come baq to you and ask if you can meet their prices that they have checked out. If you really cannot match the price and u tell dem u can't match the price, they would say sry back to you saying that they would buy from the other shop since they are cheaper but they would tell you they really apprieciated your help, so even though u can't sell the pdts, you feel like at least ur service is been apprieciated. In addition, the angmohs wldn't care much abt sm differences. like Singaporeans wld just buy fr the other shop if they are cheaper than you by a dollar and they won't care abt the time you spent on them which could be used on other customers (sry been a little selfish) but most AngMohs would come baq and buy fr you if the other shops were just 2 dollars or even 5 dollars cheaper coz they feel that service is impt. I had one such angmohs who told me that though other shops offered 10 dollars cheaper than me but he liked my service so he came baq n buy from me. Singaporeans??? No yet so far. I spent 1 hr on this Singaporean and all they said was i'll look ard first, not even a word of thanks, Frustrated of course! and the worse is that Singaporeans expect you to cost-to-cost sell it to dem, when i told them that i was only making a profit of 10 dollars (the truth!) and they say, den gimme 10 dollars discount lor. I was already selling them below the recommended retail price that you would see at apple centre, selling an ipod 80 gb at 598, i was only selling them at $570. They already save like 29 bucks and they still wan me to give them further discounts. perhaps i'm still naive, shld haf given them the retail price first b4 giving them discounts, no pt giving them discounts in the begining... Some singaporeans i feel are really asking for it when they get cheated in Simlim Sq since they are so naive in believing that a shop would sell ipod nanos 2gb at 210 when the cost is much more than that. When i tried to explain to them that the shop offering them that price is just trying to lure them baq to the shop and sell them excessiories at higher price, they din believe. I told them to try the shop by saying that they just want e ipod and nothing else, the shop would juz tell them that they had no stock left if they failed to convince them to buy the excessiories. But still they don't listen... ended up when i saw the same Singaporean, i asked her for the bill to see how much she spent... the ipod was at 210 bt one 3rd party charger that u can get outside for 18 she paid for 50 coz they tricked her into beliving it's n original charger, den the silcon case summore bad quality one which you can get at abt 20, she about it for 35. ended up... she (after my calculation) paid for 22 bucks extra if she had bought fr me and the acessiories as well... see.. they deserve it sometimes... be streetsmart... you would wan to pay less but gauage, if it so much lesser than the RCP you better watch out...

is this all?

2006-11-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

i'm here... alone at nite in my bedrm...
juz cried after a fone conversation wif ben...
it's not that he was harsh to me or anything...
juz felt lonely and empty while talking to him...
long pauses.... can't help bt to think...
is this the endin of our relationship?
nothing left to say... nothing at all...
all that's left is an awkward silence...
too much left unsaid and too much history repeating...
though said it out and tried to resolve them...
problems are always there...
Seemed to be an invisible wall between us...
mayb... i'm not suitable for relationship...
demanding too much... i dunno...
it's juz that my heart is breaking and i'm tired of crying...

din msg ben the whole day... and suddenly realised...
he won't msg me in the middle of day juz to ask how am I...
can't blame him... it's his busy day today... i knew even if i msg him...
he won't reply....
but was quite sad that after he got off frm work...
still no msg... and I must always be the one to msg him...
mayb he's too tired to talk me... rite?
or mayb... there nothing left to say...
nothing left to think of ea other...
Y tell me u miss me on the fone when we say our goodbye?
seems like u r juz saying it as a routine...
do you really miss me?

Mayb it's juz wat we can't change...
i can't change the fact that i'm always saying hurting words to him...
it hurts me to say those things... it hurts him as well...
can't change the fact that I'm insecured...
like i've said... I'm not suited for a relationship...

Msg ben that i was sad... very sad... and a good nite to him...
was waiting very much for him to reply or call me...
but nothing at all....
guess i was hoping too much... crying alone...
why is this happening???
it's so frustrating!!!
why won't it dry???

been thinking abt us once more...
yes... i think too much...
read too much on relationships...
i shld juz enjoy our time together rite?
i can't i can't i can't....
it hurts so much... but i guess things wld happened again...
history wld repeat itself...
crying alone is nv wat i wan...
y can't he see that????!!!
it's a mutual thing...
i can't be there for him when he needed me....
so he won't be here for me...
i guess Jul's rite... He's not suited for me...
though i love him so much... but i noe...
the more we stay together... the more we can't leave without ea other...
because we got so use to ea other's presence...

i've decided once again to run away fr problems...
i noe it's wrong but it's the safest route that i can choose...
i noe he'll hate me... but i know if i don't let go now...
it'll juz end up hurting the both of us...
we both know... these 4 months had been hard...
ben said before... being in this relationship was sad to him but if he din had this relationship he wld be more upset...
to me... why cont this relationship when i see tears in his eyes...
if it's gonna keep on hurting the both of us...
won't it better to let go???
it not that I don't love him.. I do.. I really do...
Sitting in front of the screen n typing all these...
i'm in tears once more...
it's hard to let him go...
it really is... but i noe...
if it has to hurt... let it just hurt me...
juz let him hate me...
it'll perhaps be better....
he doesn't deserve a girl like me...
he deserves much better... someone who can share his woes...
someone who is not a burden to him... someone who is kind, lovable and good looking.... someone that's opp of me... sry...

i'm at it once again... sad to say..
but I dun deserve to be happy...
i'm a siner....

At Maths Lecture...

2006-11-06T08:43:00.000+08:00

I juz realised that my life is 'damned cool'...
now at maths lecture...
and realised that only at maths lecture do i actually start blogging...
lolx.... so of course... my current location is at maths lecture...
lolx... doing illegal things... again... lolx..
denis is sitting beside me... he says he no idea wat is going on wif lect...
haha.... me too,,,, lolx... dun understand a word he's saying.... (the lecturer)...
lolx... denis juz tried to ans the lecture qns... but he GOT IT WRONG!!!!
wahaha... half-mugger/ smarty shorts got it wrong for the first time...
and now he cannot take the fact he's wrong...
takes his calculator out and start calculating... lolx...
haha... Ben had food poisoning on sat... and thanks to me...
dat's wat everyone says.... lolx... coz he was wif me on fri... den sat he got food poisoning le
wahaha... ate crabs yesterday nite... super happy,,, i alone ate 2 crabs... lolx...
yummy!!!! :) crabs rulez!!!!! lolx... shall end here... and listen to klass as denis suggested... lolx

bored...

2006-10-31T20:22:00.000+08:00

bored... really bored... wanted to study but no motivation....
hai~ sighs... :(
shall start 1st nov... i wonder when the timetable for examinations
coming out.. i'm having 3 papers on 1 single day 30th nov... sucky... lolx

Maths Lecture!!!

2006-10-26T08:18:00.000+08:00

Ok... current location: LT 23... Maths lecture has commenced....
haha... wat am i doing???? BLOGGINF!!!! lolx...
it is a miracle... i actually woke up early for maths lecture... lolx...
wahaha... so i'm sitting in lt 23...
listening to A.P Chan... starring at my com... haha...
i'm being very bimbotic lately.... painted my nails metallic blue...
haha... yesterday went to dear's hse... had a really great time...
Dear's scared of pple tickling him... I had a good time making him laugh... lolx...
the funnniest thing is... I din even touch him yet... he started laughing le...
but dear was being very UNGENTLEMEN!!! coz he almost kicked me off his bed while we playing...
MEaN PIG!!! lolx... haha... but had a great time anyways... lolx...

high on alcohol

2006-10-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

haha... i'm high on alcohol now...
juz drank white wine wif mummy and went on a shopping spree...
lolx... becoming more and more bimbotic.... spent alot today...
haha... lucky got 100 metro voucher so all e shoes i bought lyk considered free...
wahaha... i bought new fila bag!!! and a handbad too!!! becoming vainer ea day... lolx... i super like wat i bought today!!! friday shall go on another shopping spree... lolx... wahaha... buy my sneakers... lolx...
tml is hari raya... so selamat hari raya to all my muslim frens :) hope u have a happy holiday... lolx...
tml will be cleaning day for me... throwing all e old clothes and bags away...lolx..
and I passed MATHS!!! miracle!!!! lolx... shall end here :)

Silk

2006-10-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

Watched silk today... it's a ghost story... but not scary..
more like touching... lolx... being such a baby...
kept crying... sry dear... i'm such a burden to u...
really sry for making u take care of me all the time...
cursed the haze! been coughing and still not recovering...
sucky... thnks to HAZE! shall go see doc soon... lolx

trying hard to study

2006-10-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

ok... i'm trying my best to study le...
I'm sadded... i juz tried studying maths...
realised i noe nuts abt maths...
it's like totally nothing... lolx... i'm so gonna fail...
well... at least i've finished my proj for NM...
and tutorials,,, (a little... but better than nothing)... for my other mod...
only left maths... coz im clueless... i guess i shld really get down to work on my maths...
lolx... may god bless me in passing my end of sem test... wahaha...

Sick!!!!!

2006-10-11T12:42:00.000+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
been sick for MORE than a wk!!!!! so sucky!!!!
:( losing my voice... now really sexy lor...
haha... been slpin alot lately... lolx...
like mon... i slept like 12 hrs....
haha...PIG... ok... done my maths test...
lolx... 16/60... Fantastic rite???? wahaha...
Jia You ba... I promised that I'll start studying
frm next mon... no more going out... juz be a MUGGER!!!!
wahaha

trip to GENTING

2006-09-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

ok... went genting on the 26th oct n came back on the 28th...
genting was ok... quite fun...
enjoyed the weather...
most importantly, enjoyed dear's company...
lolx... bought a 'thinking' cap for glen...
haha... and Junior (an elephant) for juliet...
haha... sry... dun complain me bias...
me not much cash too... Spent totally 3 days wif dear...
Poor dear has to take care of me... coz i'm blur and stupid...
lolx... pple... word of advice... if u're not on budget trip..
pls do not choose First World HOtel coz it's and IRONY to it's NAME!!!
haha.... shall end here... tooo tired.... zzzzzzzzzzzz

Mac Office for Sale!

2006-09-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

Anyone who bought a mac book or mac but din buy the Mac office eg. Words, PPT etc...
I bought a mac office wif 3 license so currently have 2 for sale... if you dun mind not keeping the disks and is happy wif juz installing the office drop me a tag?? or post a comment so I can get baq to u... the price for 3 license is at 269 but since I'm keeping the disk... I'm selling 1 license at 80 bucks only... spread the word k my dear friends :)

Spending time watching 'L' word... plus a little post for Denis

2006-09-22T17:51:00.000+08:00

haha... ok... here's something i promised Denis to do... lolx...
Denis I'm helping you announce wat embarrassing thing u did yesterday...

Denis was TONGUE-TIED when talking to his dream girl Rebecca...
OMG... he 'stalked' her frm class to canteen...
stopped her in her tracks and said... 6 Words...
' Er... He.. (pting to michael who was wif him) Oh well... Never mind'
Haha... How embarrassing... OMG.... first time see a AC guy TONGUED-TIED...
lolx... sry Denis... really wanna laugh at you!!!! lolx... haha..

That's all for Denis... move on to the 'L' word...
ok... spending time watchng 'L' word wif Glen...
haha... really wanted to turn Les now... haha...
Suddenly feel like going into a girl-girl relationship... haha
Kidding la... but tink if Dear's reading him most prob pissed????
haha... Dear get angry??? Nata happy.... haha.. I'm saddist... haha...

Did EL test... tink flunking soon since it's Neg. marking...
Shit!!!!! Damned.... haha... read all instructions before u do any paper...
coz i realised at the last min... that anything written not on the given lines...
will be disregarded... and for phy. students doing As... remb... 6 choose 4...
lolx :P wahahaha *evil laughters* going crazy!!!!

getting my old days baq

2006-09-21T08:22:00.000+08:00

haha... guess where i am now.... haha....
maths lecture.. ok... i muz thank my dear le..
haha... thnks for not slping and waking me up at 6 am..
super sweet! since he had always failed to wake up to wake me up...
haha...

ok... since last wk... been hanging out wif Glen...
So cool... it's like the good old days...
we meet jul too... the twin tower baq again!
lolx.... super fun... we went lotsa places..
we went to prawn... den went to jurong hill top look at couples...
drove all the way to west coast,,,, lolx... ate at kfc...
3 person eating family feast again...
we are a family afterall ;)
haha... realli enjoying this... lolx...
den they say i very mean to dear...
coz hardly meet him... lolx...
sry dear... dun worry... will spend every single sec wif u next wk :)
haha.... glen and Jul so cute...
we had girls talk... and glen intro me to this show call 'The L word"
some lesbian show... haha... but the lead actresses are damn cool and juz makes me wanna say
Why am I not les????
lolx... Carmen is like sexy... it's those that Guys really wonder why dey muz turn Les...
lolx.. Shane is like... Cool,... she's the reason why some guys still remain single...
*pardon me... lolx... After watchng that small exp... I wonder... why am i not les man..
haha... but if I am... dear'll be probably very sad... lolx

tml got el test.... gonna flunk,,, lolx...
coz nv attend any lect at all... lolx...
pray hard ba... somemore negative marking..... lolx
thanks ba... going genting... super happy..
can't wait for holidays to start.... lolx

2 posts...

2006-09-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

ok... 2 post at one go...
haha... went to prawn wif glen and jul on tue...
very very fun!!!!! haha.... the pple at the prawn pool nice!
haha... teaching us these newbies how to fish for prawns...
we had lotsa prwans... mayb abt 20 plus? for 3 hrs of prawning...
lolx... slow but fun...

today very sad...
had a nightmare yesternite..
dreamt of all my dearest turning their back against me...
i was sadded... realised that I'm juz a loner...
sadded... cried and cried the whole day today...
glen was wif me... we cried together... her eyes were all swollen...
2 cry-babies... lolx... i was sad... very sad... for no good reason...
PMS? haha... mayb... crying makes me tired... *yawns*
Jon wasn't here at work today... wished he was.... he wld ask me wat's wrong
and well, juz try to joke wif me so that i stop crying... plus he'll buy
me longan to cheer me up.... haha... wanted to hug dear today when I cried...
but ea time when I wanted to look for him he was serving customer so no chance...
finally when got chance... I dunno how to ask him...
haha... told glen she better than me... at least when she cried, she called me...
when I cry... I dunno who to call... coz i feel like I'm disturbing pple...
end up feeling really childish for crying... and feel like I'm a burden to my love ones.... hate tis kinda feeling... so helpless...
shall end here... eyes getting smaller frm crying... *yawns...

another BAD DAY!!!

2006-09-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Pissed******
realli bad day today...
i shld say bad wk...
since last wk's fri till now
damned... even now i'm having bad luck...
reali dotz to the max!
damned... Pissed**
my many thanks to Jonathan!!
a real bro helping wif all my stuff...
he's reali nice... and he's single..
hee hee.. so ladies who are still single...
go 4 him k??? lolx...
sales' bad today...
haha... damned... dun even noe y i even go work...
juz eat and eat non-stop...
damned.... hee hee...
6 meals a day since the begining of the wk :(
nvm... put on some weight to lose again la...
hee hee

life is finally starting to get baq normal

2006-09-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

ok... quite happy wif my life now...
at least it's getting bad to normal...
lolx.,.. As in finally i've attended all my tutorials...
fri... love today... end le means i get to rest... lolx

blues and blues... rough patches!

2006-09-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

ok... i dunno why.... i'm depressed...
since last friday... i feel so depressed...
partly it's coz friday was a bad day for me...
never felt so 'bad' luck in my life...
lolx... missing all my tutorials...
worse on sat and sun... angry wif boss...
den mon... overslept... did this mac thing half way...
nv instal the windows os... wasted my whole day juz liddat...
den on tue... missed my tutorials again... 10x to me and my stupid brain
dat slept thru the alarm... damned...
next... wed... still feel the 'bad' luck ard me...
hope dat this depression would leave me...
before i really get pissed off w myself..
den dun attend any lessons at all...
hope it really ends soon...
i hope i dun miss my lecture tml or i'll really feel very sian...
damned... lolx.... hope and pray...
and still have tutorials undone... plus... still haven finish copying the notes dat OLT pass to me.,..
thank goodness she's lending me her notes till nx monday... lolx

comex show... plus.... monday blues....

2006-09-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

haha.... watch me complain...
went for comex show on sat and sun...
it's was really about working....
i applied for leave frm panasonic so i can help song brothers..
haha... talk and talk non-stop since i was at the redemption counter...
lolx.... almost lose my voice... nit's realli amazing to find out that
i can actually finish wat i wanna say wif one breath...
lolx.... super lor... haha.... feel like a machine gun...
in the end the customer burst out in laughters....
say that they find me amazing....
super pissed off wif the boss...
coz really alot of pple buying cannon cam...
so there was a long q at the redemption counter...
then he keep on asking us to speak faster...
pls lor... so easy.. ask him do himself lor...
when he tried... he speaks even slower lor... pls lor...
i speak till i ended up coughing... sadded..
feel so cheated by him lor... coz of that little amt of money...
i have to work so damned hard...
come early in the morning...
work like more den 12 hrs lor...
*bish... haha...
missed doing sales badly... lolx...
ok... current location...
Song Brothers Sim Lim Sq...
haha... wat am i doing here?
upgrade my ram... and install the windows OS plus office... lolx
haha... waiting for the downloading to be complete... lolx...
waste my whole day liddat...
wanted to swim actually...
haha... i found myself loving mac and mac more!!!
haha... sadded wif dear today... waited for him for such a long time juz to have lunch 4 me...
din eat at all frm morning till like 4...
realli cannot take it le den I ask him wat he wanna eat i 'ta bao" for him...
in e end he juz says... I'm busy rite now...
so end up i ate alone.... sadded... at least Jon bought food wif me... so not dat bad...
totally sadded... and actually... when he said he busy... i fell into sudden sadness dat i dun even wanna eat...
damned... lolx... hate tis feeling... den jon ask me y i'm like so sad... lolx... wat can i say??
guess i'm juz demanding too much la.... haha....

comex show... plus.... monday blues....

2006-09-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

i had a bad day

2006-09-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

i had a bad bay...
very bad...
stupid me...
mixed up my tutorial klasses...
supposed to go for NM...
but went to maths instead...
sat down den realised in the wrong klass...
stupid...
den went for NM when it was supposed to be maths...
how stupid can i be???
end up missing both tutorials...
coz i onli realised my mistake when I went for NM...
coz venue of maths gt changes so i tot i went to wrong klass rm...
damned... i'm stupid...
cut myself while getting some scotchtape...
stupid...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my life in NUS... lolx

2006-08-31T08:38:00.000+08:00

haha... life at NUS... i've been skpping lectues... plenty of lectures... went for maths lecture once... ok twice... since i'm AT maths lecure now... thnks to my laptop... lolx... i'm online now... writing my blog... lolx...
life is definately not slacky here... lotsa work to do... and i REALLY mean lotsa work... lolx...
tutorials aft tutorials.... proj aft pro....
haven done anything yet and the first draft is due in 3 wks... lolx...
i can just die.... yup... dying soon... lolx...
tot i'll love doing maths... since i've always loved doing maths and cracking my brain....
but in uni.... maths just seemed to b unfriendly to me...
dun like it!!!! lolx.... haven done any tutorials yet... haha...
ok... at first i tot chinese lang was going to be fun.... the lecturers proved me wrong...
lolx... so boring... making me wonder why i wanna noe all the lang used in CHINA... lolx... *diaoz
New Media and Japenese studies's still ok... though i prefer New media more... wich reminds me...
i'm having NM tutorial tml and i haven done any tutorials yet...
so screwed!!!!! haha... ok... i'll start being good fr next wk... i promised...
ok... for my friends whom i haven met for a long time... here's some update abt me ;)

ok... first of all... I'm now un NUS... in FASS...
2nd.... my life is a little screwed considering the fact that I haven been attending lectures and haven been doin any homework...
lolx... killing myself everyday wif 8 am lectures and tutorials... half e time can't wake up on time...
lolx... mum is cool abt me going home late... lolx... yay... but she still nags at sometimes... can't help it...
wat to do if u see ur girl only for like a couple of hrs everyday? lolx...
ok... i'm loving my mac... like the buttons... lolx... love it lots... lolx...
a little heavy though... i love wat i do after lectures/tutorials... lolx...
been going swimming... lolx... but can't realli swim so a little like playng water...
feel dat i've lost some weight,,, bt it seems like muscle lost and fat gained... lolx...
been very fortunate,,, to have my dear wif me... haha... he's getting fatter... reali...
keep on 'sayanging' his tummy... lolx... loving my dear more and more ea day...
i'm reali childish in our relationship... lolx... always giving him black face...
den do stupid things to irritate him... but he always so sweet... tolerating me.... lolx...
the only bad thing abt him is being NOT attentive... :P shall end here...
since LECTURE ends... and i've not idea y i'm here at 8 when it ends at 910

photos of oweek

2006-08-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

O Week 2006

2006-08-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

today's the begining of orientation at NUS FASS...
time flies...
it seemed like onli yesterday when i was in pri sch...
din even dream of making it to JC let alone NUS...
haha... yet... years past...
and here i am...
a NUS student... wahaha....
Wat can I say???? lolx
Time reali flies...
Met lotsa crescentians today...
saw Jac, Yiling, Melissa, Justina, Shu Min, Sophie...
so now nv see her.... she's getting prettier...
haha... took a pic of her... super pretty n CHIO!!!!

Jap Test today... sure Fail...

2006-08-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

went for jap test today...
conclusion... SURE FAIL!!!!
haha... aft walking out of the klass rm...
i have no idea wat i've written...
haha... went to eat wif jon today at Pizza hut...
haha... super fattening...
plus juz ate, time now is 11:28pm, a plate of mee...
haha... yay...
get to grow fatter...

NUS.... FASS...

2006-08-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

ok... sch as sort of started today...
went to talks...
find out instead of 5 modules i hafta do 6
juz coz of GEM...
dunno wat to do for GEM though...
dun care la...
went swimming wif Glen and Rach..
Rach is a very very good swimmer...
haha... I had fun...
at least disturbing Glen...
touch her xiao du du...
lolx... Rach has a dog called Cammy...
'same' dog appeared later when we went swimming at glen's hse...
haha... Now sneezing coz play wif dog...
hope i dun sneeze anymore...
Uni is damned big...
GOt lost for sitting the rite bus but not alighting at the rite time :(
haha...fun.... Sch's ok so far...
love the vice dean... she's so coooooooooool
haha... very funny...

Nata's Scared of the 7th Month

2006-07-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

ok... pple may tink that I'm childish but I'm damned scared now...
i can feel someone behind me now... it's real...
i can feel like a hand touching my baq.... worse...
when i came home today... went to the bathrm in my mum's rm as usual...
i heard some funny noise.... nvm... den wash face and went to the dressing table...
Guess wat... IT WAS IN A MESS!!!! The table is soaked in solution and some tissues were thrown dere to like absorb the solution... when i screamed and asked if my sis did it... she said no... my mum oso said she din... and worse...
the solution dun smell like those we used at home...
instead.... it smelt like those *not discriminating* u spell on indians...
damned... i'm so afraid rite now...
the feeling of the hand behind my baq won't go away...
and as I'm typing now.... my rm has funny noises... very loud footsteps
dat has hardly shown itself in my rm....
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
someone pls talk to me and save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......
i'm reali close to tears now...................

Photos!

2006-07-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Finally wanted to put some stupid photos i've taken during my working days...
most of it is my zi lian zhao...

Eddie and Me! though we know ea other not very long... but still I love her lots!

Ivy and Connie... so cute!

Ivy and ME!!!!! we look like couple together rite?!

Me... super lazy!!!

dun we look alike??

ok... tis one's special... I look super slim beside the gentleman rite... haha
my dear getting fatter le...

starting school soon

2006-07-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

school's starting soon and I dunno why but keep on having tis feeling I'll be a loner... lolx... I tink i'm so used to working dat now dat i've stopped working it feels so weird... lolx... damned... i wanna work and earn money...
den again... i oso dunno wat i wanna study in Uni...
the criteria stated is making me confused coz i dun understand it at all..
time to get someone smarter than me to enlighten me...
ok... i know i've at least got to go for 4 modules ea belonging to diff. cat. of the fac... dat's all i noe... ok... here's wat I'm gonna do...
CNM... foundation to earn 4 cr...
JS... foundation to earn 4
EL... foundation to earn 4
and well...
i dunno wat to do le... lolx
mayb Psy... foundation to earn 4 cr...
yay... dat's all i noe...
haha

my fav. songs....

2006-07-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

been crazy about these songs lately..
they might not be new released songs but i love them nonetheless..
so shld write their lyrics here coz i feel they very meaningful...
if you like the lyrics too mayb u can consider listening to the songs...
lolx... it's all chinese songs :P

[情书] by 张学友

你瘦了憔悴得让我好心疼
有时候爱情比时间还残忍
把人变得盲目而奋不顾身
忘了爱要两个同样用心的人
你醉了脆弱得藏不住泪痕
我知道绝望比冬天还寒冷
你恨自己是个怕孤独的人
偏偏又爱上自由自私的灵魂

你带着它唯一写过的情书
想证明当初爱得并不糊涂
他曾为了你的逃离颓废痛苦
也为了破镜重圆抱着你哭

chorus:
哦可惜爱不是几滴眼泪几封情书哦---
这样的话也许有点残酷
等待着别人给幸福的人
往往过的都不怎么幸福
哦可惜爱不是忍着眼泪留着情书哦---
伤口清醒要比昏迷痛楚
紧闭着双眼又拖着错误
真爱来临时你要怎么留得住

Next song:

[好心分手] by 卢巧音;王力宏

女:是否很惊讶讲不出说话
没错我是说你想分手吗
曾给你驯服得就像绵羊
何解会反咬你一下你知吗

男:也许该分析不应再说话
被放弃的我应有此报吗
如果我曾是个坏牧羊人
能否再让我试一下抱一下

女:回头望　伴你走　从来未曾幸福过

男:恨太多没结果往事憧憬是折磨

女:下半生陪着你怀疑快乐已不多

男:被我伤让你走

Chorus:

女:好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷统统不要好过

男:为何唱着这个首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我

女:若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破

男:回头吧不要走不要这样离开我
恨太多没结果往事憧憬是折磨

女:下半生陪着你怀疑快乐也不多
没有心别再拖

Chorus:

女:好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷统统不要好过

男:为何唱着这个首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我

女:若勉强也分到不多不如什么也摔破

男:好心分手没见过

女:可知歌者也耐好过难堪就无谓再拖
好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷统统不要好过

男:为何唱着这个首歌为怨恨而分手问你是否原谅我

女:若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破

happy blogging to me...

2006-07-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

haha... nata's finally going to write a happy post!!!!
Nata today made only a sale... bt it's over 200 plus profit
but decided to share wif Han han since he helped me get e goods...
lolx...
last day of work is coming soon!!! finally...
get to reali rest and enjoy my life...
the 1st thing i'm gonna do is to polish my piano...
tink my piano very poor thing...
nv get to b polished for a long time...
and of course... muz get pple to tune le...
haha... my poor piano...
played it today... Finally... n still love it the most
since it helps me destress...
i love my piano... coz whenever i tink too much...
my piano is e onli healing power i have in my hse...
i can juz do nothing and play my piano for hours though i have very little songs to play...
reali love it so...
wich made me feel like singing...

n i love it so...
the pple ask me how...
how i live to know...
i tell them i dunno...
i guess they understand...
how lonely life has been...
but life begins again...
the day it took my hands...

and yes i know...
how lonely life can be...
e shadows follow me...
the nite won't set me free..
bt i dun let these things get me down...
now that i'm in love wif it...

Negative thoughts....

2006-07-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

[Negativity]

I always feel that negativity is a must in everyday life
for I've always believed in what is known as 'The Balance'
Only with negative thoughts can one truly see the beauty of positive thinking
Only with negative feelings can one feel the joy of happiness

Life is full of ups and downs.
Each turn brings wisdom to those who are brave enough to walk on
knowing the hardships ahead.
This is when one truly grows up, not physically but mentally.
A person who has his or her live in the bed of roses will never truly mature in his or her thinking.
Once he or she meets with an unfortunate incident, there could only be 2 outcome.
The first, is of course he/she could not bear the agony and chose to end it all.
The second, is to take things in his/her stride, learning to leave with the pain, and eventually emerge as a more beautiful and more fully bloom flower.

I have negative thoughts lately, too much of it actually.
Sometimes, too much for me to bear.
Tearing and telling myself...
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going...
telling myself... i've to hang on...
have to let myself grown into a much beautiful flower..

growing up

2006-07-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

i'm growin up and learning more and more about myself...
i tink as i think thru ea day, i feel dat wat others said abt me is right...
rather what Glen said abt me is rite...
i'm too serious.... too serious abt how others feel...
i dun like others to be angry wif me...
seriously... i feel reali bad and sometimes, it makes me cry...
in this way, i'm a big cry baby i guess... lolx...
mayb to those who think is funny to play wif me and act angry wif me...
i tink you onli end up hurting me... haha...
coz these days, i cry alot... most of it is coz of work...
it's not dat i hate my job or anything...
i juz dun lyk it when it pple r angry.. coz of stupid things i do...
i'm slow and dense... lolx... so i end up doing things dat i shldn't do...
so when others r angry wif me or gif me a black face i feel reali sad and bad...
i feel like i'm always giving pple xtra work...
makes me reali stupid and stuff....
lolx.... haha.... school's starting soon... and well... i dunno wat 2 expect for sch...
as i'm growin up... i'm feeling isolated frm the human world...
mayb i'll end up as a loner wif no frens at all in my uni days...
been skipping jap lessons and making myself feel bad and wonderin how the hell can i pass my jap test on 2 aug...
lolx...
i'm wondering now wat am i doing...
been doin all the wrong things...
i dun even noe wat i'm doing is rite or wrong...
i got myself in tis relationship dat i'm not sure if it'll work out...
& i'm having bad feelings abt it...
lolx... mayb i shld turn into a lesbian...
i tink in dat way... i'll feel safe...
knowing dat i won't get hurt at all...
lolx...

watching world cup @ gas huas

2006-06-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

haha... i'm currently watching world cup now at my fav. hang out place.. with glenda by my rite and a very stupid person at my left... lolx... rachel is here as well, she insists that i mention her in this post...
by the way... it's half time now.... the match is Brazil vs Ghana... lolx... brazil's leading by 2 goals now...
ok... since the waiter cum bartender here is so sweet and kind... i shall help this poor little bar get some customers...
here goes... my first 'write up' as a journalist.... lolx

[World Cup @ Gas Haus]
Time: 0007
Date: 27/06/06
Event: Brazil Vs Ghana

Gas Haus is not the usual pub you find along the riverside or in orchard. It's one of those unusual bar in which you get to order morning breakfast when it's 10 at night. Not because the bosses here cranky or anything like that but rather, the waiters (they claim to be, so i have to believe them i guessed) here are very friendly. I was greeted with a warm welcome and was asked for my name. I must say that I very much enjoyed the hospitality that they showed, since it only took them 1 min to memorise my name and addressed me by Natalie. They will do their best to serve you, making you feel at home is what they do best. They have large and ample couches for you to lie on, ample food choices esp. the western platter, big screen projectors, and wonderfully low charges.... they don't really charge any entrance fee (except when you come in during e peak hours) and you get to order any drink you like. Yu, from vodka to ice mocha... Anything and everything... even if you come here alone, no worries my friends, your friendly waiters here will entertain you by making interesting conversations with you. not only that, you get live music and i really mean LIVE MUSIC from various local bands, esp gd if you have a band and you want to gain exprience, feel free to come to Gas Haus! Not only will you gain your exprience, you'll get to drink free as well!!!
Come now to Gas Haus at middle road... enjoy wireless connection tooo!!!!

i'm being childish again....

2006-06-27T00:01:00.000+08:00

[self-reflection]
i tink self-reflection is the main cause of suicides in human society...
reflecting ea day and trying to find yourself is tiring...
at least for me... the more i tink, the more i try, the more useless i feel, e stranger it feels to be me...
the question is... 'who am i?'
it serious... the older i get, the more fascade i see, the more confused i am...
in the end... i dun even know who i reali am....
it's like trying to rest and take down the masks i wear ea day and finding a face that i dun even noe... which, ironically, is an empty face wif nothing at all... or mayb, the masks i wore ea day is wat i am... but if the masks i wore ea day is e true me, why do i get so tired of being myself???

[ruo jue de lei le jiu xiu xi ba]
i'm willing and ready to take a break, but how do i do so when i dun even noe where my last mask lies? how do i take a break when i can't find anywhere which allows me to do so?
zhen ke xiao... tian da, di da, zhe shi jie que mei you wo rong shen zhi chu...
when i tired of walking this long stretch of road, who will b by my side, giving me a warm hug and telling me 'it's ok, take a rest.'
i reali need a shoulder to cry on, but i can't find any ea time i'm in tears
the onli comfort i have, thank god and e guy/gay who invented e cell fone, is to call someone...
bt as much as i want to call all the people i noe, i noe not who to call...
not becoz i have many frens, but coz i dunno who i can get to comfort me...
ea time i want 2 call someone, i knoe dat person will b busy and in order not to let da person worry abt me and work(wat ever she/he doing) at the same time, i said nothing... and finally when i decided to call, i realise, nobody's at the fone... Putting down the fone, a sudden realization came to me... if i take a step front and get knock down by a car, would anyone realise it's me?

[wo de xin zhen de shou shang le]
it hurts... and i dun wanna b hurt again...
i noe wat glen and jul said is true...
i take everybody's words too seriously which is why i am hurt all the time...
words are e invisible swords which pierce thru my heart and wounded me deeply
it's not dat i can't take jokes...
i juz can't distinguish which sentences are jokes, which are real...
sentences which are mean to me are but of nothing but jokes? yet it seemed so real... so real... it's like you reali wished dat i din exist in this world at all...
Am i such an eyesore to you dat you need to make me cry to feel gd?
mayb you noe not.... i always feel so small when i'm beside you... needin ur help most of e time... i feel bad... bt it get even worse when you are angry with me... you might not knoe it but it reali makes me feel like i useless... it made me feel dat i'm the cause when you are in these situations... it gets reali bad when i'm reali sorry and you wished dat you dun wanna see me again...

[sorry]
i noe it's reali childish of me to feel this way and cry coz of it...
i noe i shld grow up...
i noe... i reali noe...
but i dunno why i can't stop acting so childishly...
i hate myself....
i hate everything abt me and myself...
tried of trying to find myself and end up finding nothing...
tired of being such CHILDISH FREAK!

Girls, pls be careful...

2006-06-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

ok... i noe if i shld thank my 'brother' or kill him straight... today while working, he's showing off the stuff he has in his O2... lolx... lotsa R21 stuff and M18 stuff... guys... what to expect rite? Curiosity kills the cat, in this case, it enlightened the cat... which is me... i was watching e M18 stuff namely the upskirts in SINGAPORE...
[amazed...]
All my frens who like to wear short skirts, pls really be careful... the person who took video of the girls is reali good... while ur up the escalator... he takes 'nice' video... even if ur skirt length is like juz above the knees, he can still do dat... he can even pull up ur skirt a little to take wifout u noticing so pls be xtra careful... even sch u girls, sry to say, but AJC... oso got... so pls realli b careful... esp our PJC girls who have been crowned for short skirt.... worse... he will walk pass u n take ur face as well... haha... be careful... try to keep a look out for ur frens as well... dun let the guys get cheap thrills like this... lolx... ladies help to spread this info pls? those who ignore and kanna video is ask for it one la... lolx

83 mins of hardship in defending... all came to lost glory

2006-06-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

i am sadded... Japan lost to Aust by 2 goals... final score... 1:3.... the Japs were reali good in their defence all the way to the 83th mins... Aust keep on attacking and the jap goal keeper was so good... even the free kick awarded to e Aust din give dem a chance to score... yet... juz at the 84 min... (right aft the free kick, a corner was awarded to aust) the keeper lost his keep and let the ball in... was reali disappointed when my keeper (i'm a supporter of e Japs) let 2 more balls in... :(

heart broken...

i was still so in love wif him.... yet he let the Japs lost to Aust by 2 goals...
such a big humilation... :(
Nihon... Japan... pls win the next match!!!! Kambatte!!!!!

Stay over at PJC

2006-05-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

pple!!!! we are having a stayover at PJC... frm 3rd to 4th June... haha... it's a movie marathon... lolx... price is at 5 bucks... frm 830pm to 7 am... if you wish to sign up and stuff... pls go to this url http://www.pac.org.sg/events.htm my dear frens... pls help me spread the news k? love you guys!!!!

nata's best sales day

2006-05-10T23:40:00.000+08:00

haha... yay!!! Nata's best sales day today... sold a MASSAGE CHAIR!!!! lol...
super happy... total profit for today... $800 !!!! yay... i get 10% so i'm getting $80 lolx... ;)

loner in action.... building walls ard myself

2006-05-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

haha... been really hating work... dragging myself to work...
i have had enough...
tired of pple gaving me black faces...
lolx... i may b fooling ard during work bt pls dun treat me like a real fool...
i noe i'm juz a part time but dun tink dat u can juz bully me liddat...
i can b evil too if i want...
but i'm tolerating coz i dun wan pple to tink i'm a bootlicker or baqstaber...
pls... stop blaming me if u can't reach ur sales target...
stop asking me to go away coz i'm juz a promoter...
fine... i get the point... not gonna step anywhere near ur place...
happy? lolx... if u still can't reach ur sales target den shut up...
dun blame on me.... basket.... hate guys with dat arrogance juz coz u've worked for years dere... pls pardon me but i have to curse... son of a bitch...
the onli reason stopping me frm leaving is call i need the cash...
damned... if only i had more mths to come... i'll quit and leave...
SUPER PISSED!

bEiNg pRoUd

2006-04-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday... went to family gathering and to sao mu... lolx... hate to meet wif my aunts and uncles since dey onli noe how to depise us and of course... not 4getting the 'great hipocracy' lolx... acting as if dey care abt us bt actually juz wanna suan us... so dey ask me how's my results... told dem all Bs (not true but hafta lie :( ) den dey ask me which course i'm going in n wich Uni... lolx... den i told dem i apply all 3 uni... for SMU went to SIS interview... NTU going for sch of Info and Comm on Mon for interview and test :( and NUS FASS bt mass comm (so far no news....) den my uncle said to my mum... your daughter can get into SIS meh? she got no IT background... den dey say... Why dun go SC? dey make more money... lolx... i said nothing coz no pt talking to dem... once dey haf this thinking NO matter wat u say... dey still INSIST dat dey are right... lolx...

wanted badly to tell dem... USE UR BRAIN LA... GOV SAY DEY INVESTING ON BIO CHEM... SO MANY PPLE CHONG FOR BIO CHEM... WHEN I GRAD LE SO MANY PPLE IN E SAME FIELD... U THINK U CAN GET GOOD PAY MEH? U TINK LIKE NOW? NOT MUCH PPLE IN THE FIELD OF COURSE DEY GET GOOD PAY LOR... oso wanted to tell dem dat... according to my teacher, Ms Lim, she say if wanna go into research muz study till like phd lor... if not, u'll nv be able to do ur own research... den wat's the pt? lolx.... my cousin say can do data analysis and get to travel abroad if i do pharmacy... i wanna laugh... those who noe me... do you think i can sit infront of the com frm 9-5 juz doing analysis? i'll die lor... I like to do sales coz get to meet diff pple lor... and not sit and look at com lor.... *faints*

Today... Letter frm SMU say i accepted into SIS... was wondering why din dey deliever the letter earlier? den I can shoot my uncle and say ALREADY ACCEPTED lor... lolx... aniwae... I noe i very mean... but if... juz if... i get into all 3 uni... (reali hope so though i noe tis dream abit hard to realise) I'll call my uncle and ask (since he offered to help) which Uni shld i go into? lolx... den make dem shut up lor... juz coz dey haf the money dey think dey're great... lolx... i noe i'm mean and evil bt tis kind of pple... lolx... pls lor... slap the face lor...
was reali happy to get a seat in SMU so now at least i can say... I'm an undergrad!!!! lolx.... i noe... it sounds abit arrogant bt den... lolx... aft yest. incident... i tink i've the right to enjoy tis moment of arrogance? now pretty worried abt my port folio... NTU SCI muz do portfolio :( bt i reali hope to get in this course den go in Division of Public and Promotional Communication in 2nd year... lolx... wanna do PR... lolx... so now i shall pray ;) hope for the best ba... lolx... actually got another more worrying thing in my mind... my JAP teSt oN wEd... haven reali study yet... :( pray hard ba...

Shooting Experience

2006-04-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

haha... went Shooting today... No... NOT those kind with pellets... not laser... n not air... it's LIVE ROUNDS!!!!!! haha... today had a competition wif the rest of the companies... so went to play... it's super fun... and scary... coz the sound very loud... almost became deaf aft shooting... Tried 8 diff. guns... ea of them have names bt can't remb... haha... but was fun... the guns are HEAVY... trust me... aft firing... my muscles were aching... lolx...
juz lemme sort of make all of u who nv touch a gun before jealous... it's so FUN!!!! my instructors were sort of panicking for me coz i'm like the youngest dere plus i nv shoot before... so tis wat happened...
First 8 rounds... I had this silver pistol... the instructor told me to pick the pist. up and so i did... happily put my trigger finger in and he was like 'NO NO.... tell u dun put the finger in... safety safety...' and the gun IS heavy... lolx... den the instructor say muz watch out for recoil... haha... and of course the loud bang...
den the instructor gave signal to load the gun... so i load the gun... dere 5 others beside me as well, loading their gun... tis time i din put my trigger finger in... haha... den the instructor told me how to aim... and den the guy beside me juz fire w/o the instructor giving the instruction... i was shocked and automatically point my gun on the ground... pointing at the own feet... den my instructor panicked and screamed... 'Dun aim downwards!!! U'll shoot your own feet if it misfire...' den later during the shooting, he sort of held the bottom of my gun to prevent me frm pointing the guns downwards... lolx... den aft the 1st 8 rounds he was like... 'i was so afraid u point the gun downwards lor... and scared dat u scream...' lolx... so dat's the 1st 8 rounds... the next 8 rounds, i made another instructor laugh... he was well aware dat i have no shooting experience at all... the gun he gave me was supprisingly light... den he tell me coz the gun is 80% plastic and 20% metal (not in the sense of metal alloy but like the barrel is metal and e grip was plastic)... den i ask him... is the recoil for tis gun big den? he said no... and yes... *faints... haha... so I shoot... aft the first shot... i said... 'Recoil's good!!!!' meant to encourage myself not to b afraid of e recoil.... he burst out in laughters... *faints* coz he felt the way i said among the mist of firing was comical... but for dat gun i got a high score to put me up to 3rd place :) den subsequently... the instructors gave me instructions to aim slowly and shoot and not to rush my shots... so in the end... i got a score of 181 out of 600... wich made me third... not bad for a first time shooter rite? lolx... den we proceed to the metal targets... it's like u haf 10 secs to shoot 3 targets down with 5 bullets... lolx... within 5 sec i cld only shoot 2 down wif 3 bullets... lolx.. but very fun... the instructors told 2.2 secs to take their gun out frm the side pockets, aim and shoot all 3 down! Pro man... lolx... but it was fun shooting pistols... shld try... if u haf the money coz according to the instructors.. .the bullets' 80cts ea... not to mention the guns... lolx... rich man's game... lolx... but it was a nice experience!!! love it!

Going crazy...

2006-03-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

i'm going crazy... working and working... haha... boss's face very black and i've been a poor worker.... sold stuff undercost n i'm like so dead... haha... hopefully tis month's salary's enough for me to pay my school fees and holiday at genting... haha... watched The Shaggy Dog... Nice... shld go and watch if u haf the time and money... haha... it's full of cute doggies... haha... and other animals... the dog... shaggy's cute!!!! love it... haha... can't wait to get my own dog... lolx... aniwae... been applying for uni... and the application forms are killing me... wat's wif NTU and SMU? muz write essay... *faints... bt reali hope to get into Mass Comm in NUS / NTU... not reali keen in going SMU.... coz it's so far frm home... din realise how near SIM LIM SQ and Plaza Singapura is till i walked today... normally will wait at the bus stop at the hotel opp SMU for bus 7 which will drop me at bugis village... today coz ran out of time... I was tinking dat since bus 7's like a detour i might as well try my luck and walk... Half an hour shld be enough... dat's wat i thought... but reali... it onli took me 10 mins... which made me wonder why the hell i wait for the bus dat takes 15 mins to come and a bus ride of 10 mins plus walking of 5 mins... haha.... so now... i'm juz gonna take bus frm my hse to the hotel den walk to my work place... lolx... been gaining weight since i'm stressed at work... everyday trying to earn more money... but i'm not good at sales... haha... n the pple dere say i'm childish... :( haha.... am i?

my first blog since a long time ago...

2006-03-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

ok... haven't been blogging so guess the world (frens) has lost some connection wif me... wahaha... went baq to Pj for orientation.. went to b ogl... ok la... had fun wif the J1s... wahaha... go and bluff dem i retainee... wahaha.... my og rox! OG 23!!!!! wahaha... shawn was nice to buy a gift for me... saw jeremy... finally... went to army by now shld be guang tou le... wahaha... went to watch movie wif Robert on thur... wahaha... everyone shld watch yours, mine and ours if u haf the cash and the time... if u enjoyed watching cheaper by the dozen (1 or 2) u'll enjoy tis show too... but everything is quite predictable in the show... but nevertheless nice... wahhaha... i wanna quit my job le... everyday kanna scolded by pple... wahaha.... *faints.... wahaha.... *shake heads* shall stop now... whahaa... oh yeah... PAC's gonna have 'PJC amazing race round sentosa' so those interested can leave me a note... more details will be given on the PAC website... wahaha... den PAC's gonna haf 'Past vs Present' day... list of games will be out soon n most prob will be on the 27 may... so pple interested pls drop me a note too :)

'A's.... haha

2006-03-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

ok... today got back results... well quite unexpected actually though won't even call it good... i actually wasn't reali nervous when i got back my results... juz wanna get over and done wif... wahaha
my results not dat good but hopefully good enough for me to go into uni...
wahaha... here's my result... B for Chem, C for Maths, C for bio.... I was shocked to get C for Bio coz I'm a straight F student... wahaha.... Ms Lim's proud of me :) wahaha... another surprise is my GP... got B3.. i din reali noe wat i was writing dat day of exam... wahaha... but who cares.... juz hope dat SMU, NUS and NTU one of them will accept me? aniwae... i'm finally no longer fooling ard and settling down... wahaha.... sort of contented now... wahahaha

results 2day...

2006-03-01T00:23:00.000+08:00

s haha... i'm worried... of results... haha... heaven has been kind to me such dat the release of As is on my off day so i won't hafta apply 4 another leave... wahaha... a little worried but i'm fine... coz if fail den go poly lor... nothing much... wahaha

my AmaZinG daY!!!!

2006-02-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

2day's the most amazing day of my life... why? My customers for 2day are all CHINESE from CHINA... and i SPOKE CHINESE AS IN REAL CHINESE 4 the WHOLE of 2day... amazingly amazed... wahaha... i'm proud of my chinese man... coz even my customers thought I was frm China... which sort of made me sad... wahaha... 2day actually sort of joke wif Chye Heng which is a miracle... and steve and chye heng both are horny guys coz dey say dey like girls cooking San Wei Tang (according to Desmond u pronounce it in hokkien it's something very horny) and I haf no idea wat dey tokin abt till Steve was trying to 'jump' onto Chye Heng wif legs open so i sort of guess the meaning... *sweat drops* wahaha... Steve is scary as usual, saying dat he loves me and stuff... n of course... Desmond will help me :) he wld say natalie's mine lor u go away... wahahaha... den i'll oso say i rather b Desmond's mistress den his wife... lolx... bt of course we all joking ard onli... Chye Heng den asked me wat kind of guy i like... den Patson said muz be those study very good one... den cannot smoke, drink, gamble and stuff... den i laugh... i say i where got so troublesome... I onli ask for something very small which is NO SMOKING and of course taller den me!!!! and added dat wif this NO SMOKING stuff i'm looking out for.. all the guys at Song Bro failed le esp. Steve... wahaha... den Chye Heng say I muz be lookin for guy like him le coz he's tall, and ok looking (meaning he doesn't look like his own age) and he doesn't smoke (which is SO NOT TRUE coz Ben says he smokes lor still bluff me *bish*)... I say yalor (coz i thought he attached le) den Steve say Chye Heng still single so I said I was kidding when i say i like guys like him so he won't get the wrong idea... wahaha...

2day's the ONLI day dat I knock off and i'm not happy... why?? coz phillipines had a landslide killing 200 and 1500 missing... made me super sad... almost cried in the store... getting childisher by the day... :( aniwae... I din manage to watch fearless on wed wif matt bt managed to watch 1/4 of it 2day thnks to Ben coz he dl for me on his laptop... too bad had to work so cannot watch all of it but the 1/4 of it alreadi cannot make me tahan le... coz lots of break hand and leg scene ... *shakes head* wahaha... oh yeah... muz oso thnk him for being nice enough to offer to lend me his fone coz my fone got problem bt of course nv accept coz i feel evil... wahaha...

my cute girl cornnie very upset today :( coz she hasn't been able to sell anything for the whole wk and boss is pressuring her everyday... 2day she was so upset she said to patson she wanna quit... wahaha... hopefully not la... found de jing and wellson not dat scary le coz i gave dem v day present n dey thank me :) and wore my frenship band and said it was nice... so i'm super happy! :) wahaha...

shall end here... coz i wanna go watch tv le

Happy V Day!

2006-02-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

first before i start blogging... Happy V day to all... wahaha.... ok... wanted to blog long ago bt haf no time...

wahaha... first thanks to rachel, Jul, glen, joyce and sin hui for going to devil's dance bar wif me on wed... wahaha... guess the bartender dere hates me le... well i keep puttin my empty glass on places where i shldn't put them plus i accidentally spilled ice over his counter so I guess he shld be pretty pissed off...

wahaha.... aniwae.... I HATE ANG MOHS WHEN THEY ARE HALF DRUNK! why? dey reali noe how to Chi tou fu lor... yesterday kanna twice lor... ask me take pic wif dem (and dey smell of alcohol) obviously I dun wan... den he PUT his HAND ard me lor... I push his hand away and ran off to attend another customer... SUPER PISSED OFF lor... den another one ask me take pic oso... thnk god he din insist when i said noe... wahaha... funny things happen juz b4 V.day... this customer asked me... 'If i buy the most expensive shaver frm u, will u gimme ur fone no?' wahaha... obviously i said no... mayb i shld... I get to earn extra commission... wahaha... aniwae... all these pple are half drunk... so wat can i say? dey probably saw some fat girl and think dey are thin (referring to me) and ugly to pretty too (refering to me too) wahaha...

so today the big V day... carried on the tradition of giving everyone i noe a present... wahaha... tink wellson hates me... SMACK HIS FACE! he's customer say my massage chair good he said 'OSIM's Better'... SLAP HIM UPSIDE DOWN! ArgHHHHHHHHH.... wahaha... dun like him at all...

wahaha... time to complain abt Bob, my sheep... besides occupyin half my bed... I've nothing to complain abt... but seriously... he's too fat... shld go on a diet wif me... oh yeah... thnk Ben for being such a kind soul to send me home thought he's main reason is to Lang fei shi jian... due to his need to book in at 2359 n refusal to book in at 8... wahaha... so he has been kind to send me home... wahaha... summore bluff me he stay in Jurong West... *faints... think i too naive le... muz learn to grow up if not the pple at the work place still call me Xiao Mei and Ginna... *faints... wahhaa...

happy bdae to me!... Tml... wahaha

2006-02-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

wahaha... I'm turning 19 tml... feel so old... here... will like to thank several pple... thank you ben for giving a sheep... the sheep's name's Bob... and he's fat... as fat as he can be... wahaha... next thank you wakey and phy for giving such a wonderful nite yesterday singing and celebrating my bdae... wahaha... thank you Juliet, Glen, Rach and Sin Hui who have been nice to go clubbing wif me tml... thank you Robert for treating me to clubbing... thank you Teck Hean for the wonderful bdae card :) thank you all my frens for wishing me happy bdae! :) last but not least... thank you Alvin for lending me $164 and selling me at such low price for the iriver mp3 player... thanks... wahaha... thnks to Hong Ming for letting me burn ur hair... thnks Desmond(s) and Chye Heng for making laugh as I tried bt wrongly guess your ages... wahaha... thnks everyone for all that you've done for me and making my life worthwhile to live... :) love ya....

met chi yuan 2dae!

2006-02-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

haha... 2dae met chi yuan or shld i say yest since the time now is 2 plus in the morning... i wanna complain Johan... he very uncle leh... came wif berms and shirt and sandals... *faints den wanna go drink he like dun wanna go coz of his attire... so we ate @ subway... den went party world n order vodka lime... wahaha... chi yuan's getting thinner even though he say he's getting fatter.... *bish... he nv get fat lor... skinny till like a bag of bones onli... wahaha.... it was quite fun lah i muz say... Johan the entertainer plus teck hean wif his vulgarities... pls kee Onn and his new gf... and not forgettin jin hong, ke yun and jin sheng... wow... wahaha...dere u go... a bunch of crazy rowdy pple.... wahaha.... spent alot of money today but think quite worth la... at least we had a good time... wahaha... ok... i've like almost lose my voice... wahaha... can't wait for 8th feb... going clubbing wif jul, glen, sin hui, phy, and mayb wakey... whaaha.... i'm gonna make sure i party all night!!!!!

Haven been blogging

2006-02-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

wahaha... it has been such a long time since i've blogged... nthing much juz working life... always bullied by the pple at my work place bt dey are nice pple la... but soon i'm gonna sue steve the one in my shop for sexual harrasment he even though he onli jokin... sort of got a taste of my own medicine?
pple here are reali frenly... wahaha... Dad visit me in the shop today and Linus, my collegue, ask me who he was since i din call him dad at all... wahaha... he was worried dat he was my bf scared i get cheated ar... den i hafta convince him dat dat was my Dad... wahaha... later... thanks to Hong Ming... i was 'mistakenly' labelled as Lesbian... wahaha.... *faints... den Linus wanna counsel me again... wahaha... den i've been getting fatter... why? coz e pple here's been feeding me well... keep askin me rest and eat... so now i'm weighin heavier.... wahaha

saw steve today

2006-01-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

saw steve today... wahaha... he seems the same except for some bad habits... wahaha... talked to him... so long nv see him... wahaha... not bad keep on seeing seniors... wahaha.... aniwae... he lost his PSP so he's thinkin of buying another one... so i hope he buys frm me... wahaha...
we went to eat ice at bugis den was talkin... learning dat steve's 'Grown up' wahaha... clubbing... and smoking... *shakes head... asked him try to cut down... well den again... everyone at my work place smokes so wat's new? wahaha... den learned dat he blushed damn easily... wahaha... and told him i'm announcing to e whole world dat he blushes easily... wahaha.... aniwae... i've been addicted to yahoo towers... wahaha.... i'm like playin till 3 am in the mornin everyday... wahaha

work today

2006-01-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

today's a boring day... nothing much... wahaha... saw tis Ang Moh child... damn good looking la!!!!! wahaha... sorry to Gabriel coz he came to buy i river bt yet coz of some reason he has to wait a few more wks... wahaha... aniwae... i'm BROKE...wahaha... no pay... 0h yeah... for my frens... if you want to buy electronic products... come to me... i may not give you so much discount bt since we are frens lemme earn the commission... wahaha...

today at work... at least my view of someone has changed a bit... coz din like this guy... tink he super arrogant n stuff yet... he sort of quite nice when he's playin wif kids... which to me was quite unexpected... din expect a xiao liu mang like him will play wif kids... wahaha... tat's all for nw... well... mum said dat when u work u will lose weight bt lemme assure... it DOESN"T work dat way... coz i'm gaining weight... wahhaha... next time u see me u prob wont recognize me... wahaha

finally done what i've been wantin to do

2006-01-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

Nata now officially announces dat she has become a dumb blonde... wahaha
after so many wks.... i've finally found the time to dye my hair... and unfortunately... I'm having the same colour as Gordon... wahaha... Mine's much nicer... i muz say... :P wahaha... sales have been pretty bad for me bt who cares... i juz love stoning i guess... wahaha... at least it's a job...

tis year's like a wow start for me... for starters... i've done wat i wanted to do... this includes doing facial... dyeing my hair... and of course... officially started to study Jap... wahaha... my teacher's a jap and she's like teaching us real fast... wahaha... started learning how to write in jap... wahaha... any nice songs pls lemme noe k... wahaha.... arigato! wahaha

another day @ work

2006-01-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

[life is juz like a routine]

aft graduating from sch... i tot i cld do away wif the routine of getting out of bed and getting out of hse at the same day ea day but i was wrong...
working is like studying except dat u work for 6 days for 8 hours n nt studying for 5 days for 12 hours... wahaha... of course no teachers nagging at u and no endless pile of homework and materials to study... bt some things are the same...

no.1: there's still no freedom to do wat u wan unless u wanna get scolded by boss

no2: U still can't report late for work....

no3: U still can offend the pple on top of ya (not physically bt as in title)

no4: dere's always pple telling u to do these and that...

Guess this is part of working life... wahaha... n of course u can't part, no matter where u go, the GrEaT hipocracy! wahaha... other den dat... working life is actually quite fun... esp. when u get to meet all sorts of pple...

for one... I had this customer trying our massage chair and she laughed the whole time as she was trying out... haha... so life isn't dat bad working... my work place's full of guys and dey're horny... whole day cracking horny jokes... talking abt meeting girls... talking abt gang banging girls.... *shake heads... bt dey are nice pple la... wahaha... basically... and dey treat me like a little sis... always calling me Xiao Mei juz bcoz dey older den me by at least 4 years old... wahaha....

Let's see how i can intro dem...
the most handsome guy: Andy...
He's tall, nice body and has a GREAT SMiLE!!!! Everytime he smiles at the female customers I think dey are like melting lor... wahaha... he's very frenly and he's very nice to his gf... wahaha....

The most cute guy: Peter...
Peter's 30 years old BUT he DOESN"T look 30... wahaha... he still bounces ard like a kiddo... always playing a fool and laugh... he always kanna bullied by others dat's like younger den him lor... wahaha...

The most lame guys: Alvin, Peter, Linus, Gordon, Hong Meng
Other than lameness, these guys have 1 more thing in common... dey all belong to the MP3 dept... wahaha... alvin's the one who came up with all the qian bian qns... Peter likes to take the trimmer available at my counter and try to trim the eyebrowns of the others... and he tried to trim his own too... Linus the one who actually noes how to trim and trims his own eyebrows... and tried to help Peter trim his eyebrow... Gordon's the one dat announce dat he will scream (and he screamed for us to see) when his gf tried to pluck his eyebrows for him... Hong Meng's the one dat kanna bully by Peter as the latter started drawing on his hand... which later i joined in... wahaha... see... working life doesn't suck dat much...

the most nonsensical guys: Sebestian and Steve
Sebestian... he's my store manager... he can reali talk rubbish... he saved me quite a few times when Steve gets bored and decided to joke wif me by saying... aft work we go to the sea side... I love you and stuff liddat... Sebestian said... Natalie u juz have to say... Gimme 5Cs... Condo... Car... Credit Card... Career and $50 000 cash per month... den he said... actually juz say 50 000 cash per month... Sebestian though he's like 30 over years old he can be very childish... dere was once... he took a stamper wich had the word 'redeemed' on it and stamp a whole piece of paper... see... nonsensical rite... as for Steve... he keep Singing Jie Kou bt he onli know some words of the chorus... suffering with his singing everyday.... *faints...

The most fatherly: Steven!
my direct supervisor... he's very nice!!!! Always helping me and joking ard wif me... wahaha.... he's reali fatherly la... nv scold me when i do something wrong bt always guide me :)

My most fav. guy: Brandon
He's my most fav guy... He got this smile dat's very weird la... He's my prince charming coz he look like a good husband... wahaha... of course i din tell him dat... he's laughter is like so cute... wahaha... dunno how to describe...

my fav girl: Cornnie!!!!
she's very cute!!! wahaha.... she's sweet and super cute... talks with a cute voice too and so sm size... wahaha

I had became the joke of the day once... thnks to my asst.asst. store manager... desmond, he was gonna take pic to show his customer the picture quality of the cam den he ask me pose so of course i did my ac pose the one wif e victory sign... den he so nice print the picture out and show everyone... den he say next time he take picture muz oso have victory sign... *faints... den he did a pose wif 2 victory sign and started laughing... den dey all say the pic very cute... *faints...

but working here has made me happy la... e pple all very nice... Desmond showed me how to take picture wif picture frames and of course taught me here and dere some stuff lor... wahaha... so I'm quite blessed :)

life...

2005-12-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

ok... aft working for 2 wks... i tot that my work is not dat sucky at all besides the stoning part... at least get to see cute children... like i saw one today... SuPer cute.... and easily tempted by sweets... wahaha... kids...
the working staff are mostly nice to me... wahaha... come talk to me when dey see dat i'm stoning...wahaha... so life's dat.... a routine dat's all

working life

2005-12-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

[working life]
one word to describe working life...
[sucky]
my working life sucks to the core coz i onli stone and stone the whole day...
wasting time onli lor... wahaha....
esp. so when everyone's busy and u r the onli one dat's not...
wahaha....
bt the boss where I'm working at quite nice la...
in a sense that he offer to let me work full time if i dun wanna go Uni...
wahaha...
well the onli thing dat makes me happie workin dere is a girl name cornnie...
wahaha...
she's my cute girl... haha... the 1st thing she say to me like almost everyday is dat...
'U eaten lunch already? Go eat dun starve...'
wahaha... she's cute la... wahaha...
I saw many look-a-like in my work place...
first... i saw a Jin Hong look a like...
Den a Chong yi look a like
Den a Issac look a like...
whahaa... and an Edward (shld be correct) look a like...
e edward i'm toking abt is not the one in bmt... it's the one dat's one year senior who acted in the musical for PJ sch opening ceremony...
wahaha... wow...

ok... some QiAn BiAn questions frm my work place...
All In ChiNeSe...
Qn: Xiao Bai Jia (plus) Xiao Bai shi shen me?

Ans: Xiao Bai Two (Xiao Bai Tu, little bunny)
Lame rite?

Qn: Which superhero fall down will call his/her name?

Ans: Batman coz he fall down will say painful siah (bian fu xia)
*faints...

Qn: nao ge (which) cartoon charactor zui le yu zhu ren (helpful)?

Ans: Xiao Ding Dang ying wei ta xi huan sheng chu yuan shou (his hand round mah...)

*faints... shall end here... wahahhaa

Gradnite 2005 plus working and shopping

2005-12-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

[Gradnite 2005]

Gradnite 2005 was on monday, 5th Dec 05. Well, I was late for grad nite coz I was working... aniwae... let's juz talk abt my gradnite... it wasn't reali fun... kinda boring.... i dun mind the games dey played on the stage bt otherwise... it was boring and the food sux... wahahha.... next... the prom King and Queen normination was based on sabotaging (most of it) which made it reali sad coz the more pretty ones were sitting at the tables eating while the less pretty (handsome for guys) ones on stage... i'm not saying that the prom King and Queen are not/less handsome/pretty or anything like dat... coz i tink they are good looking (can use for both guys and girls rite?) bt other den them the others were normal bt of course all better looking than me... wahahhaa... so it ended liddat.... POST PROM AT GOTHAM PENTHOUSE SUCKS!!!!!!!!!! we were supposed to go clubbing together bt guess wat, dey din accept ezlink cards wif primary sch photo... so out of the 6 of us who went, 2 were left outside and of course those who went in came out.... in the end... i din club at all... wahahha... so much for my clubbing experience.... well at least I went to K box and sang my heart out wif phy so it wasn't dat bad at all bt den my mum had to wake up and realise i wasn't home... so kanna scolded lor coz sing till like 4.30 a.m... wahaha... thank goodness dat my mum called me in the morning at 9.30 am to scold me coz if not i'll be late for work...

Working now... juz had trainings so far... 1st day had nothing to do.... 2nd day was better.... my mentor started teaching me... she very friendly... but got scolding coz i took 15 min extra lunch break... wahahhaa... went for training again today and dun understand wat the jap instructor was talking abt... coz his english was full of jap accent... he made motor sounded like motar... wahahha... aniwae... today my sis bdae and mum took us out...

we went shopping and spent alot... mostly on me.... hhaha... coz going to work on mon and realised dat i din had much to wear so went shopping.... went and bought 2 jeans, 1 pants and 1 blouse and 1 pair of pink earrings... tink i'm turning girly... wahahhaa.... den wanted to buy shoes bt none to my liking so going shopping again on sat.... wahhaha... oh ya... i'm gonna dye my hair... whahahha.... totally spending today $200... wahahhaa... mum nagged a little juz now... bt aft all it's all her money so she'll feel the pain la... wahahha....

sentosa trip...

2005-12-04T11:55:00.000+08:00

haha... want sentosa yesterday.... haha... tink i'm mad to go coz I'm sunburnt... haha... First let me complain.... i itnk my skin is peeling!!!!!!! Argh.... how to face pple like this????? haha... I'm in pain too.... asked for it la... Oh ya... muz scold of all them act. is more like wakey and belle... tell me 9 a.m. meet but actually is 9.30... den i alone wait at the train station for everyone to come... :(

haha... Sentosa trip consists of me, belle, ruo yun, wilkson, wakey, peiyu, lynette, hui ying, ry's fren (dunno spell his name) and KY... the girls (with exception of me) is going there to get tan... haha so dey all sit under the sun... Belle, me and lover went to get food from 7/11 so we sat the beach train... hahaha... kanna cheated by belle... coz we sat 1 whole round... haha... by the time we sat 1 round I finished all the food i bought from 7/11... haha.... almost return empty-handedly.... haha... aniwae... belle bought a lot of food frm 7/11 so we'll like feasting... hahaha...

we played volleyball but we all sucked at it.... i took the ball and hit belle (4 fun and evilness) and got it back double? coz i'm burnt that she hit me very pain.... hahaha....

we were all being very evil dat dey... coz wilkson asked if he got grow taller... den belle said no.... he shrink... becum skinnier and shorter.... haha....i asked wakey den she say he like no change lor.... haha....

Guess the best part of the whole day (for me) was to tease wilkson and wakey... hee hee.... *evil... tink ky is the best le... well... wilk was talking abt smthing like he was chased by a crazy man.... den we say he attract gays... haha... den we brought Mr Ang in.... say when he go clubbing he attract gays and his GF will hug him and say he's straight.... Den i say wakey wld go the same thing... RY and Belle say no... Wilkson shld take the initiative so ky said den wilk will hug wakey and announced that he's straight! hahaha....

aniwae... den all of them (coz i burnt le so nv join) went to play captain's ball in the sea... the Girls won with 21 to 9... hahaha.... the guys... aiyo... shld work harder la... the forfeit for wilk was to carry wakey and run but the both of them dun wan so let's not be mean la... we din force dem to do dat... bt in the end dey took a pic together as a forfeit... so here's the pic... dun dey look loving (i'm so going to get killed by wakey :P)