NecromanceR

Thursday, September 23, 2004

came home today... realise alot of things in my hse all broken down... The tap is leaking like Shit... the toilet flush is not working... the com is havina abit of the problem... my fone also got problem... wat do all this signifies???? I wonder... lit students should noe... this symbolises a disfunctional home... wat's dere to care abt when you realise that all that you cared once long ago is totally 'broken' and does not deserved to be cared anymore??? hahaha... yet I still cared... i wish my home can be broken once and for all.... the home I live in... the tings in dere are broken... so are the relationships... so why hang in dere??? why do you all haf to push the blame to me???? did I choose to make things turn out this way???? NO! I'm innocent... yet... i'm suffering too... isn't it unfair for me???? Why can't they just get the bloody hell problems fixed and leave me alone???? So many voices telling me wat to do... i can't even find my own voice... wat did i ever want to do????? I wonder and ponder.... hahaha... yet i know not.... I've learn to hate and hate is making me feel lost and hopeless.... i dread to go home when all the rest wanted to go back to the house they called home.... Home Sweet Home... what a lie... when I go back... wat do i see??? things that made me feel so digusted... i just wish to leave....

Nil posted 11:38 PM

am i still alive?

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Hahaha... spent another day laming wif Tse Tse... hahaha... i wanna laugh and cry at the same time... she realli make the environment cold enough for me to survive... ahahaha.. But i tink I'm mad... i keep wanting to die infront of her... hahaha... I keep saying to her that I wanna cross the roads wif her den suddenly stop on the road so an on coming car can knock me down... den she will see everything n den will remember me for all her life.... i oso say that if i wanna take the plunge den i'll tell her to meet me at the carpark or something liddat den jump so that i will die infront of her... hahaha... lame rite??? dat's all for today...

Nil posted 8:11 PM

am i still alive?

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Lyk I've said... I always wonder who I am deep within... I seem to have lost myself...
not knowing who I am... yup... dat's me... I feel so fake... hahaha... I really miss my Cresecent
days... no worries.... just happy-go-lucky... hahaha... dat's y... I always like to be with tse tse...
hahaha... remind me of the good old days... hahaha... I tink and I serious tink it's the truth...
and that is I'm not happy in JC at all... I seem to have lost all my social skills dat i once had in Cresecent... I'm pretty much a loner now... hahaha... see... life sux... mayb it's juz me... well wat dat personality test said was true... I lack of soulmates... hahaha... I dunno who I can talk to when I'm down... when I'm upset.... when I feel like dying... when I feel dat the world doesn't need me... when I question my real identity... will someone pls tell me who I reali am... coz I feel that I'm really what my aunts said abt me... Cunning, sly... all those -ve words.... hahaha...
and I laugh.... and shall mock at them.... y didn't dey ever think of who made me this way? it was them! ALL OF THEM!!! I wish I had a knife that I could kill them all! But I can't... for in my brain... *thnk god for my brain* is tooo logical to do such stupid stuff... coz i'll end up paying my life toooo... not a good deal.... so i've decided.... they want me to act like a little good girl...
so I shall be... hahaha.... i hope and will be successful den one day when they beg me for help...
I WILL NOT HELP! I shall mock and laugh... mayb i'll give them a dollar or two and ask them to get lost.... hahahaha.... Wat kind of a meanie am I? See what I mean???? I tink I'm mad... tinking of such stuff when I'm suppose to be enjoying life... hahahahaha.... but who realli cares?? No ONE! hahahaha....

Nil posted 10:27 PM

am i still alive?

Yoz!!!! hahaha.... life sux... especially when you don't know anything about yourself...
Yup... that's the wat i feel now... hahaha... i dunno who i am... wat i am... hahaha...
i tink i'm underneath a mask yet i noe not the real me... :( hahaha... i just realise my tired...
tired of waiting... tired of hoping... tired of everything... so tired that I just wish to give up...
i wish and i wish... but i'm too afraid to do so.... i'm afraid that 1 day if i die... no one will
cry for me.... hahaha... I noe not what to say... i just feel lost.... hoping someone can grab
my hand and pull me out of such a pit... hahaha.... i wanna laugh... i wanna cry... dat's
what i feel... hahaha.... later shall blog again.... lolx

Nil posted 7:44 PM

am i still alive?

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

today... haiya... went for bio test... wat i studied din came out... wat i din study came out...
:( sad life... to make things worse... went to play mahjong today... lose like shit... at first lost 50 over den at the last point reduce to $26.. haiya.. life sux... sch sux.. everything sux... haha... but had a great time today... the guys i played mahjong wif quite cute... all got gf le... no hope for me... hahaha... anyway... it's great to be undefined... hahaha... but tink my 'brother's sister tinks i'm les... she very chio... musically talented... and she knows french... den today i ask her so many question.... she sure tink i not straight... hahaha... but who cares... chio gals and shuai guys are meant for xing shaning!!! hahha

Nil posted 11:37 PM

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Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Hahaha... today's a great day today... becoz... T day celebrations finally over and get to see my CGS classmates!!! Hahaha... Feeling so happy... seeing my classmates being as lame as me... hahaha and today... I studied wif Juliet... hahaha.. she studied... i din... :( ahahahaha... we ate KFC today... and guess what... we had our normal meal... 3 person (including glenda) eating 4 pple's meal... hahaha den Glenda say I will from Natalie become Faterlie... hahhaha... think she is right... after today... i'll be on a diet!!! hahhaha... hope everyday's like today... forever be happy!!!

Nil posted 9:46 PM

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I'm a MartiaN living on Earth hence, my nick MOE! been here for 19 years nw, Earthling lifestyle suits me fine... main obj. on Earth is to learn all abt the species call Humans... and of course how to get along well with them... Have Earthling parents, and an Earthling sister who's a pain in e neck... Love my life here, 6 years of a pri. sch girl at Fuhua, 4 Yeas to call myself a CrEsCenTiAn, 2 years to PJC and another 3-4 years to come to b a NUS student... haha... Looking at what more this Earth can give this poor old martian... lolx...

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