Wednesday, June 28, 2006
haha... i'm currently watching world cup now at my fav. hang out place.. with glenda by my rite and a very stupid person at my left... lolx... rachel is here as well, she insists that i mention her in this post...
by the way... it's half time now.... the match is Brazil vs Ghana... lolx... brazil's leading by 2 goals now...
ok... since the waiter cum bartender here is so sweet and kind... i shall help this poor little bar get some customers...
here goes... my first 'write up' as a journalist.... lolx
[World Cup @ Gas Haus]
Time: 0007
Date: 27/06/06
Event: Brazil Vs Ghana
Gas Haus is not the usual pub you find along the riverside or in orchard. It's one of those unusual bar in which you get to order morning breakfast when it's 10 at night. Not because the bosses here cranky or anything like that but rather, the waiters (they claim to be, so i have to believe them i guessed) here are very friendly. I was greeted with a warm welcome and was asked for my name. I must say that I very much enjoyed the hospitality that they showed, since it only took them 1 min to memorise my name and addressed me by Natalie. They will do their best to serve you, making you feel at home is what they do best. They have large and ample couches for you to lie on, ample food choices esp. the western platter, big screen projectors, and wonderfully low charges.... they don't really charge any entrance fee (except when you come in during e peak hours) and you get to order any drink you like. Yu, from vodka to ice mocha... Anything and everything... even if you come here alone, no worries my friends, your friendly waiters here will entertain you by making interesting conversations with you. not only that, you get live music and i really mean LIVE MUSIC from various local bands, esp gd if you have a band and you want to gain exprience, feel free to come to Gas Haus! Not only will you gain your exprience, you'll get to drink free as well!!!
Come now to Gas Haus at middle road... enjoy wireless connection tooo!!!!
Nil posted 12:00 AM
am i still alive?
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
[self-reflection]
i tink self-reflection is the main cause of suicides in human society...
reflecting ea day and trying to find yourself is tiring...
at least for me... the more i tink, the more i try, the more useless i feel, e stranger it feels to be me...
the question is... 'who am i?'
it serious... the older i get, the more fascade i see, the more confused i am...
in the end... i dun even know who i reali am....
it's like trying to rest and take down the masks i wear ea day and finding a face that i dun even noe... which, ironically, is an empty face wif nothing at all... or mayb, the masks i wore ea day is wat i am... but if the masks i wore ea day is e true me, why do i get so tired of being myself???
[ruo jue de lei le jiu xiu xi ba]
i'm willing and ready to take a break, but how do i do so when i dun even noe where my last mask lies? how do i take a break when i can't find anywhere which allows me to do so?
zhen ke xiao... tian da, di da, zhe shi jie que mei you wo rong shen zhi chu...
when i tired of walking this long stretch of road, who will b by my side, giving me a warm hug and telling me 'it's ok, take a rest.'
i reali need a shoulder to cry on, but i can't find any ea time i'm in tears
the onli comfort i have, thank god and e guy/gay who invented e cell fone, is to call someone...
bt as much as i want to call all the people i noe, i noe not who to call...
not becoz i have many frens, but coz i dunno who i can get to comfort me...
ea time i want 2 call someone, i knoe dat person will b busy and in order not to let da person worry abt me and work(wat ever she/he doing) at the same time, i said nothing... and finally when i decided to call, i realise, nobody's at the fone... Putting down the fone, a sudden realization came to me... if i take a step front and get knock down by a car, would anyone realise it's me?
[wo de xin zhen de shou shang le]
it hurts... and i dun wanna b hurt again...
i noe wat glen and jul said is true...
i take everybody's words too seriously which is why i am hurt all the time...
words are e invisible swords which pierce thru my heart and wounded me deeply
it's not dat i can't take jokes...
i juz can't distinguish which sentences are jokes, which are real...
sentences which are mean to me are but of nothing but jokes? yet it seemed so real... so real... it's like you reali wished dat i din exist in this world at all...Am i such an eyesore to you dat you need to make me cry to feel gd?
mayb you noe not.... i always feel so small when i'm beside you... needin ur help most of e time... i feel bad... bt it get even worse when you are angry with me... you might not knoe it but it reali makes me feel like i useless... it made me feel dat i'm the cause when you are in these situations... it gets reali bad when i'm reali sorry and you wished dat you dun wanna see me again...
[sorry]
i noe it's reali childish of me to feel this way and cry coz of it...
i noe i shld grow up...
i noe... i reali noe...
but i dunno why i can't stop acting so childishly...
i hate myself....
i hate everything abt me and myself...
tried of trying to find myself and end up finding nothing...
tired of being such CHILDISH FREAK!
Nil posted 12:01 AM
am i still alive?
Thursday, June 15, 2006
ok... i noe if i shld thank my 'brother' or kill him straight... today while working, he's showing off the stuff he has in his O2... lolx... lotsa R21 stuff and M18 stuff... guys... what to expect rite? Curiosity kills the cat, in this case, it enlightened the cat... which is me... i was watching e M18 stuff namely the upskirts in SINGAPORE...
[amazed...]
All my frens who like to wear short skirts, pls really be careful... the person who took video of the girls is reali good... while ur up the escalator... he takes 'nice' video... even if ur skirt length is like juz above the knees, he can still do dat... he can even pull up ur skirt a little to take wifout u noticing so pls be xtra careful... even sch u girls, sry to say, but AJC... oso got... so pls realli b careful... esp our PJC girls who have been crowned for short skirt.... worse... he will walk pass u n take ur face as well... haha... be careful... try to keep a look out for ur frens as well... dun let the guys get cheap thrills like this... lolx... ladies help to spread this info pls? those who ignore and kanna video is ask for it one la... lolx
Nil posted 12:08 AM
am i still alive?
Monday, June 12, 2006
i am sadded... Japan lost to Aust by 2 goals... final score... 1:3.... the Japs were reali good in their defence all the way to the 83th mins... Aust keep on attacking and the jap goal keeper was so good... even the free kick awarded to e Aust din give dem a chance to score... yet... juz at the 84 min... (right aft the free kick, a corner was awarded to aust) the keeper lost his keep and let the ball in... was reali disappointed when my keeper (i'm a supporter of e Japs) let 2 more balls in... :(
heart broken...
i was still so in love wif him.... yet he let the Japs lost to Aust by 2 goals...
such a big humilation... :(
Nihon... Japan... pls win the next match!!!! Kambatte!!!!!
Nil posted 11:47 PM
am i still alive?
