Thursday, March 31, 2005
yoz... so long nv update my blog so finally decided it's time to sit in front of the com... haha... Common test juz past... haha... quite cool actually... I flunk Bio and Chem... haha... wif Bio the lowest in the klass... I rocks man! lolx... Chem oso flunk... bt i dun wanna go for remedial... dun wanna stay in sch.... sick and tired of sch... hahaha... who to blame? hahaha... me of course... din study hard enough... lolx...
Wanted to write a song for stepping down... haha.. got half the lyrics in my mind... so juz write down first b4 i forget... tink it's pretty lame... coz we'll nv sing it ar...
[it seemed like only yesterday]
[when we first took our place]
[yet today, we're gathered here again]
[oh, to pass our duties to the future batch]
[The roads were rough]
[the times were tough]
[but together we stood as one]
[the tears we shed]
[the joy we share]
[will forever remain in our hearts]
I have no idea what i shld write for chorus... lolx... forget it la... hahaha...
[swimming in the ocean is a dangerous thing]
[if you do not find the shore soon, you'll eventually wear out and drown]
Nil posted 9:48 PM
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Friday, March 18, 2005
I think i'm mad le!!! I'm in love wif badminton and BADMINTON REALI ROCKS!!! Been playing badminton alot of times le... wed played, thur oso and fri oso... lolx... feel very happy playing badminton... haha.. i tink i rocks... everyday say wanna go kfc study everyday end up eating dere, talking dere and playing badminton... Common test F9 le... so smart rite??? haha... reali love my tuition teacher... he so sissy... love him lots! Glen came up wif a theory today... If you r crook during your girl's sch days den u'll be straight when u reached jc... bt if u straight when u in sec, u'll be crook now... er... haha.. she din mention those in betweens... lolx... anyway... Girls School Rulz and if given another chance i'll still choose CRESCENT!!!! (provided i can get in ar) Love Crescent... :) Love pj too... i mean the pple, the pioneers not the admin ar... yup :)
Nil posted 10:06 PM
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Thursday, March 17, 2005
Haha... 2 things wanna write in my blog now... haha...
i have juz finished watching '1/2 yuan fen' or 'you are the One.' haha... kanna influenced le.. feel abit sad ar... haha... sad for Terrance Cao and Rui En... haiya... even though i noe the ending le... bt still can't help bt teared when they broke up... tink what Zheng Xi said damned cool... something like 'shi wo de bu ren, ye shi dui ta de shang hai' if onli i can meet someone like zheng xi... i dun mind eating korea food everyday... lolx
ok... enough of that... lolx... I feel MEAN... coz i've juz watched my sister almost died frm i dunno wat do you classify that coz it doesn't seem to be nagging, aniwae hell frm Mum... lolx... Tink my sis stupid... she said something she not suppose to say... so in the end kanna frm mum... bt i feel bad not helping her... She is stupid... lolx...
Juz recap what happened... we (mum+me+dumb sis) were discussing abt having kids... coz the show Mei Man wasn't able to conceive... aniwae... we were talking abt how costly it is to raise a child when my STUPID sis had to say that my Aunt complained that it's costly to provide her when she was young wif milk powder... haha... That's something she shldn't say... why? Coz my mum has almost been sensitive abt the relationship my Aunt has wif my sis... Tink she jealous that my Sis pays more attention to my aunt den her la... Plus... it's abt money too... plus my mum is half drunk... i shall assume that since she already finish the bottle of red wine... So my mum said to my sis... 'You like Aunt so much, you go and be her daughter. Don't be mine. I don't mind selling you to Aunt. If not you go ask Aunt to be your god ma den stay in her flat from Mon to Sat den come back onli on wkends. Anyway Aunt oso got rm for you in her flat. juz stay dere lor since every wkend you oso dying to go to Aunt's hse.'
So cool rite? Den when my sis say dun wan... my mum ask her why den she cldn't answer... haha.. So i wanted much to say... You STUPID GIRL.. so easy oso dunno how to answer... lolx... I wanted to tell sis that you can say... 'Dang ran bu yao la... Ma ma zhi you yi ge, zheng me nang sui bian qu dai? Mummy will always be the 1st one in my heart. Gugu zai zheng me qing ye hai shi mei you mummy hao. i love gugu bt i love mummy more' After so many years living wif mummy, don't she know that mummy very easy to hong one meh? When i was her age i already noe wat is meant to be said and wat is meant to be kept in the heart... lolx... summore she live wif mummy longer den i did... as in comparing the age... she live wif mummy since primary one and i onli started reali staying wif mum at primary 3... one word... DUMB!!!! ok... even so i still feel bad... I cld have intercepted if i wanna.. bt den the one who will suffer all this nonsense will be me... coz she ask my sis so i can't answer for her... If i answer for her den guess i reali have to be my sis dan jian pai all the way... lolx..
So now... guess my sis sleep le... cry herself to slp.. I'm hoping dat 1 day she'll reali learn when's the right time to say certain stuff... lolx..
Nil posted 10:06 PM
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Monday, March 14, 2005
haha... ok... tink i shld be completely si xing le... yup :) haha... tink onli juliet and glen will noe what i toking abt :) bu guo zai hui jia xiang hou... wo zhong yu xiang tong le... No regrets! :) haha... We can always be friends... lolx... coz the cards oso say we can be frens onli... lolx... bt i'm happy... bu yong xiang tai duo... lolx
Nil posted 11:15 PM
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Talentnite 2005 was a success! haha... and I enjoyed it... took part in the emcee bt lost... lolx... bt ok la... at least we all enjoy talentnite! lolx... They sabor me... make me do pole dance wif T.Y... lolx... was nervous... but fun la... den you you ling yi shi jian le... lolx
I took a picture of myself wif my camera fone... and the pic turns upside down... 1 min later i took another pic wif Shahul (nt sure if i spelt correctly) den the pic turn out okay... which is scary becoz i used the same fone and took it the same way... so... u can do the conclusion... lolx...
Today... saw Steve... guess wat?! Steve is much slimer den 1 year ago... lolx... he lost like a lot of weight la! He can do those slimming centres' photo le... the before and after... he reali my idol... lolx... Wish i cld be like him... and get slimmer... lolx...
Conclusion... I'm reali glad to see Steve! He's a living prove to how NS can make pple Fit and Trim... hahaha... Mayb the women shld go ns... den we'll get slimmer too ;)
Nil posted 12:08 AM
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005
today talk to glen... den can't help bt ask myself the question Juliet ask me yesterday... when don't i try? yup... Tink i'm a little regretting for not trying... if onli i dared to try... guess i wldn't have any regrets won't i? haha... yup... so mayb i cld gif an advice to Juliet's fren.. pls try... dun be like me... in the end have lotsa regrets... :(
Nil posted 10:13 PM
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Monday, March 07, 2005
ok... this is dunno how many thousand time my right eye is sore plus a little swollen... lolx... yesterday had i nightmare... dream that i cldn't see anything at all... so abit worried... thank god that Ms Seah is nice enough to let me slp in her lesson... lolx...
Oh yeah... today... i felt that this guy, shall nt mention who is, not very nice... or i shld say a JeRk... he asked me if he was a jerk today and i replied yes.... even though he said that he DID NOT 2 time his gf bt still feel he did... he say his gf nw is after he and his ex broke up... bt too fast le rite? I mean like onli a few days ago dey broke up den now he got new gf... lolx... Dunno wat to say abt him... tink he's onli flirting wif the girls lor... in the end cause the girls to feel heartbroken... Haiya... Juliet... dat's y i nv wanna start a relationship...
Yup... today Juliet ask me a question... if a person who's a flirt goes after me and tells me that he likes me will i accept him? My answer? Nope... hahaha... den she ask will i start a relationship if i like that person alot bt i noe it won't last or juz to be friends... lolx... the thing is dat she noes my answer den she still ask me... lolx... For those hu truely understands me will say NO! Yup... haha... den she say i reali like her fren... both of us will do the same thing... lolx...
I will do that becoz i feel insecure... perhaps i dun believe in everlasting love... and dat's y i dun wanna get hurt... No starting = no hurting... lolx... or perhaps i'm juz lying to myself... I juz dun wanna make promises that i can't keep... coz relationships are abt commitment... and i'm afraid of that big C word... lolx... so i can juz be a nun ar... lolx...
haha... juliet reali noes me best... i remembered one day she asked and answered for me... if the guy i like happens to like me and ask me be his gf will i agree... haha... No... and Never... and I will run away and nv contact the person again if i can... lolx... yup... i'm the Run Away Bride... In fact i will tell the person dat i only treat him lyk a fren even though i like him alot... lolx... tink i'm mad... i oso dunno y i liddat... hahaha... perhaps i'm juz too afraid to try... hahaha...
let's not talk abt that subject anymore... lolx... now officially broke... onli got $10 left for the whole wk... plus tml have to pay $5 GP fund... tink i reali can jian fei cheng gong le! Jia You bAh!!!
Nil posted 10:50 PM
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
yup... i'm happy... coz i 'went out' wif tse tse today.. and her fren shu yi... lolx... learn lotsa tings abt xian Zhong... so can tease him on monday le... haha... a little unhappy in the morning coz mum critised my results... bt thank god that she din do anything else after breakfast... i mean she stopped all her critics on my results... lolx... so generally happy today :)
Nil posted 9:08 PM
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Friday, March 04, 2005
*Sad laughter* Tink shld noe wat this is all blog is all abt le... Today... Got back cheena results... very sad :( I mean most pple wld kill me or swear at me if i tell dem my results 4 cheena... bt dat's nt d pt... Too many, i may sound arrogant... bt still wanna say... it's A or NOTHING... yup... and I GOT NOTHING.... Haha... Very sad and disppointed, even my mum feels dat way.... she din even bother to talk to me when i reach home... yup... Feel like crying all over again... I noe... I'm like crying for the wrong reasons... bt Chinese is my STRONGEST subject yet i'm getting dis kinda results.... can't imagine wat will happen to my other A levels results... I'm so worried dat i'll be lyk the j2s crying... Not Tears of Joy bt tears of sadness...
anyway... starting to get real worried now... guess my teachers shld be happy abt it... *mocks coldly at myself* I dunno wat to say... bt now... i'm juz emotionally down... so many setbacks all at one go.... can't really take it bt hey, life's liddat rite... *smiles glumly* Too much to bear for now...
lolx... suddenly, i juz don't feel great abt myself anymore... seriously... i juz have dis sudden feeling that I'm totally useless... Like Jack of all traits bt master in none... i feel as if i'm drowning... struggling to keep a float while huge waves slaps on my face, telling me over and over again that i'll nv make it to shore... I do wanna give up trying to stay afloat... I can't c the shore they promised to be near... not even a light house to guide me thru this storm.... lolx...
Tidal Wave 1: Setbacks since sch starts... yup... i have no idea wat the teachers are teaching... lolx...
Tidal Wave 2: CCAs.... felt reali sad to realise that i'm juz nobody... I'm juz a lousy player in my fav sports game... lolx...
Tidal Wave 3: See alot of deaths lately.... every where i go i see funerals... haha... irony now... while i'm typing dere's one juz beside my blk... lolx
Tidal Wave 4: Chinese results... wanted and confident that I cld score A... bt den got B instead... *sighs*
Tidal Wave 5: Hoping dat my mum wld encourage me... bt din get e comfort i was looking for :( all she gave was the same expression she gave me when i got back my PSLE results... I've failed to get A* for chinese that year...
Tidal Wave 6:Now i oso dunno wat council's doing... guess everyone is juz in their own world...
Tidal Wave 7: Juz felt dat i'm inheriting all my father's gene... sux big time... Juz useless right frm the begining... lolx...
Haha... having 7 tidal waves is no big deal... this i noe... bt u muz know that i grew up and walk in a bed of roses... guess now it's time for me to be independent and get hold of myself... lolx...
Don't worry abt me... for those who know me well... guess you guys won't be worrying abt me too... coz i'm those cry today and move forward tmr kinda person... lolx... (thank god for that) so guess after falling today, i'll pick myself up tml and continue this journey of no return...
Nil posted 10:49 PM
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Thursday, March 03, 2005
Okay... i'm writing for both days again... lolx.. Very tired yesterday so slept quite early... in the end i din even noe wat time i slept... lolx...
Yup... I'm pissed off... both yesterday n today... It's regarding friendly wif SA yesterday... lolx... tink i get easily pissed off... :( anyway... I wasn't reali pissed of wif individuals la... that's till today... after seeing wat Weiqi printed out... lolx...
Ok... let's talk abt yesterdae... lolx... was glad that i saw Chowie, Eileen, Yizhi, Yiling and Isabel... all my old frens in crescent... haha... I was quite unhappy wif the whole team yesterday before the game even started... yup... can trace all the way back to sch... I was angry coz we agreed to meet at 1330 in the hall and set off together in the end pple were late la... it sorta gives me the feeling dat dey din care abt the match at all... Later on, my anger was up another level when we reach SA.... Y? Coz when Juliet ask for volunteers to play singles... NO ONE volunteered... den i cldn't take it any more so I volunteered... den after me.... no one wanted to play singles... all wanna play doubles.... lolx... wat kind of attitude is this? I mean like we all know that not everyone can play doubles den juz volunteer la... won't die right?
SUPER pissed wif geraldine today... i was oni a little pissed wif her yesterday ... y? Coz she is one of the pple unwilling to play singles... In the end juliet still put her down for singles... den she cried and complained that pple always put her play something she dun like and dun wan... I was abt to say... Den wat abt me? I oso dun wanna play singles bt i know not everyone can play doubles... so y not juz gif it your best shot??? instead of complaining? Den nvm... even before she play she said... she sure lose one... den i'm like dotz.... wth... I wanted very much to tell her that if you don't wanna play den juz get out of the badminton hall... haven even fight the battle yet den you say you'll lose... abit dotz.... den nvm... when she played wif Carol... she wasn't running or trying la... n she lost like 11-0, 11-1... I mean she cld at least try her best... am i asking for too much?! Ya... i'm bitching abt her... bt i dun care... i muz COMPLAIN abt her... i'm amazed that she wrote in her blog that she delibrately lose to carol... I mean... even she try her best she oso won't win la.. bt how can she write such stuff... Juz becoz she wasn't given a chance to play doubles den she don't even bother to try her best?! Ling Li and Me, we both tried ur best even though we lost lor and we din wanna play singles... At least juz try your best.... Den nvm... Geraldine said badminton team sux and that she wished she had join some other CCAs... lolx.. I wanna tell her... be my guest... juz get out if that's the attitude... don't hog the court pls... gif someone else hu wans to play a chance to play... seriously... Den wat i cannot tolerate is that she refuse to admit that she was in the wrong n she scolded Juliet in her blog... I wish i cld tell her the truth that no one in the team wan her as a partner in doubles lor... lolx...
Okay... Enough of the complaining session... I hope to tok to Juliet soon... hahaha.... i'm gonna be very BHB and ask Juliet if i can be the trainer for juz 1 day out of the 2 days of training... haha... bt tink she'll say no :P hahaha... but watever the case is... I juz hope we'll do our best in tournament :)
Nil posted 12:39 PM
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Tuesday, March 01, 2005
today did the fortune telling thingy again... abit sad that got alot of cards... but nvm la... dun care le... very very tired... feel like sleeping... lolx... haha... bt i still got maths C lesson... den still got bio lesson... today's lesson super boring... i'm waiting for A levels results... waiting for it... hoping that I pass chinese once and for all... and of course PW ar... lolx... shall end here... go sleep for a while before going for maths...
Nil posted 2:45 PM
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