Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I guess if i failed all my mod this sem... i have no one to blame...
wahaha... I'm like slacking... another day wasted... lolx.. staring at computer screens...
that's wat i do best now... lolx.. oh ya... including blogging and listenin to Say it itsn't so...
OMG... nvm... I shall study next sem... wahaha... hopefully it won't be too late...
lolx... went to watch A BATTLE OF WITS today with dear...
it's was nice!!! I guess I just lyk watching battle shows where u see the general using their brains...
and of course the majestic view of the Army marching... I realli love the 'historic' B.C battle shows...
like lord of the ring... i guess i like the visual effects... lolx...wahaha...
I guess I'll be watchin the curse of the golden flower... wahaha... i like watchin people plotin against ea. other...
putting all morality to test... lolx... sadistic??? wahaha
Nil posted 7:45 PM
am i still alive?
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Today's my FIRST paper EL... wahaha... guess wat...
Gonna fail even though it's open bk ar... wahaha...
left the examination hall before the paper's over...
why? no pt sitting dere to stone ar...
wahaha.... cool lor... moral low... no mood to study...
Worse... everyone's like finishing their exams...
And I'm only starting mine...
Looking forward to mon...
Wakey, me, phy and Jul going to play water!!!
wahah... i wanna ask them to play bmt before we go play Water..
wahaha... :)
Nil posted 1:54 PM
am i still alive?
Monday, November 27, 2006
3 posts on the same day...
shows u how bored i am...
[All About You] [By McFly]
It's all about you
It's about you
it's all about you baby
It's all about you
it's all about you
It's about you
It's all about you
yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile "it's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to
Say 'if you make my life worth while, it's all about you
And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what i'd do
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do
Dancing on the kichen tiles, it all about you
Yeah
And I would answer all your wishes, if you asked me to
but if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what i'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you made my life worthwhile
So i told you with a smile
It's all about you
It all about you
It's all about you
It's all about you, baby
It's all about you
it's all about you
it all about you
it's all about you
Nil posted 8:48 PM
am i still alive?
[it was such a long time since i heard Say it isn't so]
[fell in love with it once more... so decided to move my muscle n type the lyrics here...]
[Say it isn't so] [by Gareth Gates]
Sikes are dark
it's time for rain
final call, you board the train
heading for tomorrow
i wave goodbye to yesterdays
wipe the tears, you hid your face
blinded by the sorrow
How can i be siling like before
when baby, you don't love me anymore
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That i'm only dreaming
Tyat this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Mmmmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the doors behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, Whoa
How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on?
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
Miles and miles to go
before i can say, before i can lay
my love for you to sleep
oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go
before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say i'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
Say you've changed your mind now
That i am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say i'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
i don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
[It's super nice!!! Wahaha... I love it!!!]
[Another song is Angels brought me here by Guy Sebastian!]
Angels Brought me here by Guy Sebastian
It's been a long and winding journey, but I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces, and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling, when I look into your eyes
My dreams came true, when i found you
I found you, my miracle
If you could see, what i see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear,
That angels brought me here
Standing here before you, feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love, every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams cam true, right here in front of you
My miracle
If you could see, what I see
that you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear
That Angels brought me here
Brought me here to be with you
I'll be forever grateful
Oh forever faithful
my dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle
If you could see, what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel, the tenderness i feel
You would know, it would be clear,
That angels brought me here
Yes they brought me here
If you could feel the tenderness I feel
you would know, it would be clear
that angels brought me here
A moment like this by kelly clarkson
What if I told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me, would you agree?
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't i'm crazy
When i tell your love is here and now
A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever that one special kiss
I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a more like this
Everything changges, but beauty remains
Something so tender I can't explain
Well I may be dreaming but till i awake
Can we make the dream last forever?
And i'll cherish all the love we share
For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one speacial kiss
I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
The speed of waiting love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search a lifetime for a moment like this
Some people search forever for that one speacial kiss
I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
Nil posted 7:14 PM
am i still alive?
i'm so gonna fail my exams... wahaha.. i mean my Maths and CL... mayb el...
but the EL exams is only 30% of the grade... another 30% fr test (which i failed both test) and 30% fr the proj (passed!!!!)
and 10% fr klass participation... wahaha.. I tink i might juz pass it... lolx...
ok... i'm like gonna fail CL totally... nv passed anyone of my assignments... still slacking... wahaha...
seriously gonna fail MATHS!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! I juz realised dat i'm the bottom 4%... so dere's no way i'm passing :(
sadded* given up hope... wahaha... EL's tml... wat am i doing here??? Slacking... wahaha.. i wonder when I'll get baq my proj results for JS and NM... like sort of hope that they wld help me pass my exams... lolx.. like the written paper is like abt 40% of my total grade... so really hoping that we did well for proj... wahaha...
slacker... i'm a slacker for sem 1... mum said i'm getting fatter...
I'm gonna run... I will.. and slim down... wanna go tanning... someone go wif me??? lolx
haha... been hanging out wif kee onn and phy lately... it's like finally i'm HANGING OUT WIF PHY!!!!!
wahaha super happy!!!! she's getting more and more corrupted and in e end, corrupting me... lolx..
wahaha... Kee onn... thanks for everything! Like talking to you!!! wahaha... ok.. muz admit it...
Kee Onn is now my foning partner... wahaha... thanks for my 'unreasonableness'... his handfone bill explode to 100+
wahaha... evil me refuses to call him using my hse fone (coz he gt free incoming)... end up he had to call my fone (got free incoming too!!! :) ) end up his bill exploded... wahaha... but kee onn's nice!!! hahaha... thanks for calling me n hear me whine... wahaha... talking to kee onn is lyk damned fun... we can talk for hours... yet it seems like minutes... lolx..
mayb coz both of us r crapy??? wahaha... but it's damned fun... laugh alot too... talked to him yesterday nite... wahaha
i was suppose to go to slp since I was very tired... but dunno why we end up talking for abt and hr... lolx..
n he was trying to convince me to call him using my hse fone.. but failed... coz i'm so comfortably lying on my bed :)
oh... tml's the start of my exams... but i've gt no mood to study... wahaha
Nil posted 12:58 PM
am i still alive?
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
argh!!!! haven been blogging... so listen to me complain....
let me complain abt my JS proj first!
Argh!!!!!!!
I wonder what the hell I'm doing here since e so-call leader is still not here yet...
time now is 1246... we suppose to have a meeting at 10...
dotz!!!!! yesterdat... i was already at HOME at 445 when she msged and asked for meeting at 620
in which she din even come... she cancelled the meeting while i WAS ON MY WAY TO SCHOOL!!!!
Argh!!!!! Irritating!!!!! She wanna be do-it-all... so she say pass all the info to her she'll write the report...
pls lor it doesn't work this way... in the end... I wrote finished the intro and stuff...
she edited frm last wk til now still haven finish yet... still haven finish doing the body...
expects us to do the conclusion when we dun haf the body... wth....
argh!!!!
ok... now... let me whine about work...
[Why do we like to serve Ang-Mohs tourists?]
ok... i was working at Sim Lim at Song bros when i overheard a Singaporean Couple said
'Let's go. They only wanna serve tourists.' They been waited for some time and notice that none of us served them.
I must say sorry to them. It was a mistake on my part since i looked at them, wondering if i should approach them...
coz they were busy talking to themselves and not really looking at any products... so frm my experience, it says... leave them alone, they'll ask if they need help... Sorry about that... but it promts me to think... why i like to serve Ang Moh tourists..
Coz they are very different from Singaporeans... Singaporeans always complain that the service industry in Singapore is not
doing its best yet in terms of service provided.. but hello... it takes 2 hands to clap! I felt so when i was just a consumer and this feeling grew stronger after I joined the service industry (sales rep).
Firstly... when customers are looking at our pdts... i would say ; 'Hi Sir, may i help you?'
8 out of 10 ang-mohs (based on my experience) wld reply either 'Yes, I'm looking for....' or 'No, thank you. i'm just browsing.'
The other 2 woud just smile and shake their head signalling that they don't need help
They make you feel like they really apprieciate the fact that you cared and asked...
5 out of 10 Singaporeans wld no 1.. choose to ignore n just look at the products and out of the 5, at least 1 would say to their partner who came to shop with them; 'they don't have ipods (when the ipods are just infront of them). Why don't they ask? esp. when i said, 'Sir May I help you?'
the other 5 singaporeans would tell them what they want, and only two of them would thank you for your services.
See... Ang-mohs are really nicer :)
Next situation...
When Serving Singaporeans... its really frustrating... coz you can spent like 1 hour serving them and explaining to them how the product is like and guess what... they can tell you things like 'Ok, I'll go check out the prices of other shops first, if yours is cheaper den i'll buy frm you.' It's understandable that they wanna buy at the lowest price... even angmohs do that sometimes.. .and the difference between the both is that... Singaporeans would just buy from the other shop if that shop is one dollar cheaper, they won't even bother to come baq and ask if you can match the price! They don't care if you offer them good services, they'll juz buy frm others if they are cheaper than yours. Angmohs? so much different! First if they think you offered a good service to them, esp. after serving and explaining them for 1 hr, they'll check the prices of other shops and come baq to you and ask if you can meet their prices that they have checked out. If you really cannot match the price and u tell dem u can't match the price, they would say sry back to you saying that they would buy from the other shop since they are cheaper but they would tell you they really apprieciated your help, so even though u can't sell the pdts, you feel like at least ur service is been apprieciated. In addition, the angmohs wldn't care much abt sm differences. like Singaporeans wld just buy fr the other shop if they are cheaper than you by a dollar and they won't care abt the time you spent on them which could be used on other customers (sry been a little selfish) but most AngMohs would come baq and buy fr you if the other shops were just 2 dollars or even 5 dollars cheaper coz they feel that service is impt. I had one such angmohs who told me that though other shops offered 10 dollars cheaper than me but he liked my service so he came baq n buy from me. Singaporeans??? No yet so far. I spent 1 hr on this Singaporean and all they said was i'll look ard first, not even a word of thanks, Frustrated of course! and the worse is that Singaporeans expect you to cost-to-cost sell it to dem, when i told them that i was only making a profit of 10 dollars (the truth!) and they say, den gimme 10 dollars discount lor. I was already selling them below the recommended retail price that you would see at apple centre, selling an ipod 80 gb at 598, i was only selling them at $570. They already save like 29 bucks and they still wan me to give them further discounts. perhaps i'm still naive, shld haf given them the retail price first b4 giving them discounts, no pt giving them discounts in the begining... Some singaporeans i feel are really asking for it when they get cheated in Simlim Sq since they are so naive in believing that a shop would sell ipod nanos 2gb at 210 when the cost is much more than that. When i tried to explain to them that the shop offering them that price is just trying to lure them baq to the shop and sell them excessiories at higher price, they din believe. I told them to try the shop by saying that they just want e ipod and nothing else, the shop would juz tell them that they had no stock left if they failed to convince them to buy the excessiories. But still they don't listen... ended up when i saw the same Singaporean, i asked her for the bill to see how much she spent... the ipod was at 210 bt one 3rd party charger that u can get outside for 18 she paid for 50 coz they tricked her into beliving it's n original charger, den the silcon case summore bad quality one which you can get at abt 20, she about it for 35. ended up... she (after my calculation) paid for 22 bucks extra if she had bought fr me and the acessiories as well... see.. they deserve it sometimes... be streetsmart... you would wan to pay less but gauage, if it so much lesser than the RCP you better watch out...
Nil posted 12:53 PM
am i still alive?
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
i'm here... alone at nite in my bedrm...
juz cried after a fone conversation wif ben...
it's not that he was harsh to me or anything...
juz felt lonely and empty while talking to him...
long pauses.... can't help bt to think...
is this the endin of our relationship?
nothing left to say... nothing at all...
all that's left is an awkward silence...
too much left unsaid and too much history repeating...
though said it out and tried to resolve them...
problems are always there...
Seemed to be an invisible wall between us...
mayb... i'm not suitable for relationship...
demanding too much... i dunno...
it's juz that my heart is breaking and i'm tired of crying...
din msg ben the whole day... and suddenly realised...
he won't msg me in the middle of day juz to ask how am I...
can't blame him... it's his busy day today... i knew even if i msg him...
he won't reply....
but was quite sad that after he got off frm work...
still no msg... and I must always be the one to msg him...
mayb he's too tired to talk me... rite?
or mayb... there nothing left to say...
nothing left to think of ea other...
Y tell me u miss me on the fone when we say our goodbye?
seems like u r juz saying it as a routine...
do you really miss me?
Mayb it's juz wat we can't change...
i can't change the fact that i'm always saying hurting words to him...
it hurts me to say those things... it hurts him as well...
can't change the fact that I'm insecured...
like i've said... I'm not suited for a relationship...
Msg ben that i was sad... very sad... and a good nite to him...
was waiting very much for him to reply or call me...
but nothing at all....
guess i was hoping too much... crying alone...
why is this happening???
it's so frustrating!!!
why won't it dry???
been thinking abt us once more...
yes... i think too much...
read too much on relationships...
i shld juz enjoy our time together rite?
i can't i can't i can't....
it hurts so much... but i guess things wld happened again...
history wld repeat itself...
crying alone is nv wat i wan...
y can't he see that????!!!
it's a mutual thing...
i can't be there for him when he needed me....
so he won't be here for me...
i guess Jul's rite... He's not suited for me...
though i love him so much... but i noe...
the more we stay together... the more we can't leave without ea other...
because we got so use to ea other's presence...
i've decided once again to run away fr problems...
i noe it's wrong but it's the safest route that i can choose...
i noe he'll hate me... but i know if i don't let go now...
it'll juz end up hurting the both of us...
we both know... these 4 months had been hard...
ben said before... being in this relationship was sad to him but if he din had this relationship he wld be more upset...
to me... why cont this relationship when i see tears in his eyes...
if it's gonna keep on hurting the both of us...
won't it better to let go???
it not that I don't love him.. I do.. I really do...
Sitting in front of the screen n typing all these...
i'm in tears once more...
it's hard to let him go...
it really is... but i noe...
if it has to hurt... let it just hurt me...
juz let him hate me...
it'll perhaps be better....
he doesn't deserve a girl like me...
he deserves much better... someone who can share his woes...
someone who is not a burden to him... someone who is kind, lovable and good looking.... someone that's opp of me... sry...
i'm at it once again... sad to say..
but I dun deserve to be happy...
i'm a siner....
Nil posted 11:52 PM
am i still alive?
Monday, November 06, 2006
I juz realised that my life is 'damned cool'...
now at maths lecture...
and realised that only at maths lecture do i actually start blogging...
lolx.... so of course... my current location is at maths lecture...
lolx... doing illegal things... again... lolx..
denis is sitting beside me... he says he no idea wat is going on wif lect...
haha.... me too,,,, lolx... dun understand a word he's saying.... (the lecturer)...
lolx... denis juz tried to ans the lecture qns... but he GOT IT WRONG!!!!
wahaha... half-mugger/ smarty shorts got it wrong for the first time...
and now he cannot take the
fact he's wrong...
takes his calculator out and start calculating... lolx...
haha... Ben had food poisoning on sat... and thanks to me...
dat's wat everyone says.... lolx... coz he was wif me on fri... den sat he got food poisoning le
wahaha... ate crabs yesterday nite... super happy,,, i alone ate 2 crabs... lolx...
yummy!!!! :) crabs rulez!!!!! lolx... shall end here... and listen to klass as denis suggested... lolx
Nil posted 8:43 AM
am i still alive?
