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Tuesday, February 08, 2005

My 18th years on earth... n i cld say.... no year's bdae is as worse as this year's... Tink the onli thing i did that i feel was good was to go watch Constantine alone... lolx... haha... Welcum to Uni life man... see I'm ready... lolx... HATE TODAY!!!

1st HAD TO SPEND TODAY"S NITE with pple that i DUN LIKE...
2nd Realise that in the end i'll still be alone... lolx... it's my fault... it's my bdae's fault... always on days where pple nv can make it....

esp. sad tis year... mayb coz i juz realise every year's bdae have been sucky... the onli loving memory i had was the bdae i had when i was abt 3 or 4... tink everyone muz feel that I'm such a useless person... onli cared abt minor things... true enough... lolx... Mayb i'm juz not as strong or as mature as i used to be... lolx...

I guess I wld say if it's like a year or 2 ago... i wldn't be crying here writing my blog... lolx... I'll juz tell myself it's ok... dey r juz busy... lolx... it doesn't reali matter... bt as i grow older... i juz wish that when I needed someone to be there... dere will be someone... lolx... Sorry bel... i noe i was suppose to watch movie wif u today... bt suddenly i dun felt like watching anything bt Constantine.... lolx...

I question myself.... Where's that someone when I need one? i dunno.... reaching out and can't get that someone when I needed.... Juz anyone... lolx... Tired of this life sometimes... mayb i'm juz to emotional la.... lolx... Read too much comics le... the scene of the boy crying alone in the dark rm and reachin out juz to find that no one wld be dere to help him... all voices telling him dat all hopes are gone.... telling him that no one wans him.... telling him that even God will not embrace him in his arms for he has sinned....

Will God ever gave up embracing me in his arms if he finds out the sins i have done? Or will it be like wat the Angel in Constantine said... God will juz let humans join him in the heavens as long as he repents... lolx... i dunno... i dun wanna noe...

Kill me pls... for i have no courage to take the life of my own.... the scent of blood is what I'm afraid of...

Nil posted 10:24 PM

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I'm a MartiaN living on Earth hence, my nick MOE! been here for 19 years nw, Earthling lifestyle suits me fine... main obj. on Earth is to learn all abt the species call Humans... and of course how to get along well with them... Have Earthling parents, and an Earthling sister who's a pain in e neck... Love my life here, 6 years of a pri. sch girl at Fuhua, 4 Yeas to call myself a CrEsCenTiAn, 2 years to PJC and another 3-4 years to come to b a NUS student... haha... Looking at what more this Earth can give this poor old martian... lolx...

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