Wednesday, February 02, 2005

haha.. i'm not meant to write blogs... i mean this is supppose to be like a diary and diary equals to writing it everyday.... but look at me... i keep forgetting to update it... lolx... tis entry is lyk suppose to be 10 thousand years ago?!... lolx... ok...tai kua zhang le... lolx...

anyway.... Juz realise not long ago that I actually is a little tired of jc life.. lolx... I mean I can't stand the way the teachers are complaining abt our attitude when their's are not great either... lolx... I love Ms Aw... even though she just scolded us twice not long ago... bt it's coz she has our interests in heart... lolx... yup... coz she's our CT and she's like trying very hard to make us perform tooo... :) haha... I dun like Ms Seah... nt becoz she's not nice or wat bt i juz dun lyk her... tink i've got attitude problem... I just feel like poning all her lesson... lolx... esp. when her's always the last period after long hours of break... SuCKY! hate to juz stay in sch and do nothing... I juz dun love sch the way I love it... lolx....

New year's coming n the sch is making every effort to make it look homely... bt lolx... aft deco... there's still this emptiness that I do not know how to explain.. lolx.. tink I just miss CGS ALOT now.... Here... it feels so empty and like it's a place build for loners... and turning pple into loners coz it's so hard and cold here.. lolx...

Even though that this is empty and cold i'm still glad that I did came here... though there's a little regret coming here bt still feel happy that I did came... coz if not I'll nv met the people i'm meeting now... lolx...

Very tired nowadays.... dun tink i slept well.... nights are always haunted by dreams... lolx.... a little pissed off with myself... lolx... coz i dunno wat i wan to do in life... I'm like wasting my youth?! Still in transistion stage where I wanna break free bt not knowing wat lies in the path ahead of me... lolx... tink my mum's gonna kill me again when she see my bill... bt i'm gonna pay my own bill lah.. felt very bad that I'm spending all her hard earned money... waiting for the day to work... mayb i shld work as a tution teacher.... lolx.. and make the children fail their subjects... evil me...

i tink i'm over sensitive... i noe not hu to reali trust? I mean when pple are nice to me i just feel that they have ulterior motives.... lolx... dunno la... dun wanna noe... haha....

wakey... noe u dun reali come here and read bt if u do...i wanna say i'm sorry... Sorry for being so mean for the past wks... i dunno wat's coming over me since orientation ended... I juz get easily pissed off for no good reason... I'm an unstable element... mayb i shld start looking for my anion so that i can get rid of my extra proton and form ionic bond... lolx...

Dunno wat's going on in chemistry now.... lolx... can't understand organic chem... bt lucky ms aw very nice... say she's gonna make us do qns and den help us find the missing link.. hahaha.... guess that's wat kind of person i am... If I can't c the link i'll juz give up.... lolx.... can't wait for training to come.... I just wanna excerise and forget all my troubles... lolx... :)

felt reali guilty for being mean to my sis too.. lolx... haha... the evil me says that finally now she get a taste of how i felt 6 years ago... lolx... at certain times it's quite cool... get to be queen of the hse den can do wateva i want.. bt sometimes it can be lonely too... lolx... i like my house bt at the same time.... i feel that it's like PJC.... big (in my opinion, my hse is big) and cold.... can't feel the warmth... can't feel the love.... can't feel anything... except the feeling of loneliness... darkness.... unhappiness...

Let saddness and sorrow fill my life... n mayb one day if I reach out again... there will be a hand to pull me out of this abyness (nt sure if spelt correctly) :(

Nil posted 11:50 AM

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